OOC: Shoutout to Joshie for letting me use his James Evans character for my piece.
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Discussing mental health. London, England. Tuesday 12th November (Off Camera)
Two hours after arriving from Chicago, in a rainy dark London in his home continent, since Saturday, Konrad arranged to meet up with a man who he needed to speak to, a man known as James Evans. Since the Halloween party, he hadn't done any socialising with other wrestlers and considering Konrad's mental health place kept reminding him to talk to someone about his Dissociative Identity Disorder.
He knew James Evans would be a perfect guy to talk these issues with as he waits outside of costa coffee shop in the O2 arena. Usually, Konrad's always on time to meet with people, apart from a few occasions Konrad's been late. Five minutes later, after Konrad arrived, James comes along, and he says this.
James Evans: "Sorry, I'm late."
Konrad Raab: "It's alright, I thought I was going to be late myself, but I arrived two hours earlier than usual. Let's go in and grab ourselves a drink."
James follows Konrad in Costa as they line up to get a drink as Konrad, as usual, gets himself a bottled of water, while James gets a decaf coffee. Konrad and James sat together on a two-seater table with armchairs. As they both sat down, Konrad took the lid off from his water and drank it before Konrad bites his lips, rapid blinking with his eyes as James asks a question.
James Evans: "Are you okay?"
Konrad Raab: "More, I'm trying to understand what I need to talk to you about."
James Evans: "The text seemed important. What are you trying to understand?"
Konrad Raab: "I've discovered I've had DID since I was eight years old, the problem is it's only been known to me now. I don't understand much about it, despite that my doctor keeps telling me to talk to someone."
James sees Konrad's nervousness from his body language of him slouching on the chair. James nodded at Konrad, knowing Konrad came to the right person. Konrad takes a sip of his water as James while in a busy costa coffee shop talks as calmly as possible.
James Evans: "I know what you're going through. I have my own mental health issues, as I am sure you’ve heard about during your time with SCW. I’ve had voices in my head. I’ve slipped in and out of the driver’s seat, so to speak. Any idea where it might have started?”
Konrad Raab: "From what the doctor and my mother told me, it started when I was six years old. It explains why I became a wrestler in the first place. I would've been in the wrestling business earlier, had I known where to join a wrestling company to be a professional wrestler, but it's difficult in Germany to get there. I was lucky I had Fizz that got me to wrestling."
James Evans: "I used wrestling because I was beaten by my drunk dad who did horrific things to me and I will say, I'm not proud of the things I've done to certain individuals like Amy for an example. But, I feel I’ve learned to cope, and live with, my mental health issues. I know its never going to truly go away, but I don’t have to let it weigh me down.”
Konrad Raab: "Damn, that makes it seem even more real."
Konrad shook his head as if he didn't even know that could happen since Doctor Schneider didn't go down that road with Konrad yet. He places his head on the table as James pats him on his shoulder, seeing Konrad trying to hide, but James lifts Konrad's head, and he says this after taking a sip of his coffee.
James Evans: "Can you tell me what happened when you were a child?"
Konrad Raab: "My dad was a drunk as well. I was a well-behaved child, unlike my twin brother, who was the one always getting into trouble, but I got kicked, punched, burned and broken bones from my father. I'm angry; nobody told me about this earlier. Had I known, I wouldn't be an angry man most of the time."
James Evans: "That's rough, but you have to move on from the past. I never thought a nice guy who's so respectful and nice could have these issues. That surprised me."
Konrad Raab: "Now I found out my high school bully, and the high school bully's friend has come out to try to end mine and my family’s life because their dads used to be friends with my dad and plotted them to bully and hurt me. That's why I snapped at people after Taking Hold of The Flame PPV because I nearly got killed. Had the security not come in, I would've died. Luka had a knife to my throat after threatening letters to kill me and my family."
It took a lot for Konrad to tell James his story about the incident at Taking Hold Of The Flame PPV, knowing it shocked James, especially that it has happened to him in the past as Konrad holds back the tears, still shaking in fear of it could very well happen in the next few months. James felt for Konrad, knowing his life could come to an end quickly.
James Evans: "My god, I had no idea you were going through all of that. After you've told me, I can't blame you for being afraid and not wanting to talk to anyone. Is that why the security has been super strict lately?"
Konrad Raab: "Yes, but I hid it from everyone because I'm not proud of it. If I kept the mask on too, it wouldn't have happened. I do everything to avoid what my dad used to do to me as a child. I never want to beat my kids up, and if I get drunk, I avoid all contact with them, in case I do something bad to them."
James Evans: "I have that same fear. Things have happened involving my child, as well as her mother, that shouldn’t had happened. Because I didn’t confront my issues, or my own trauma. Hell, I still deal with it. The rage that has built up inside. I got arrested last week, because I went a little too far thanks to that masked prick. I think of my daughter, as well as my wife and the news we just received. I think of all that and in a way, it calms me.”
Konrad nodded, it was turning out to be an excellent discussion so far, even with him opening up to James was a big step for him. Of course, most of the time of Konrad unable to meet people was due to how busy he was with his wrestling career, with protecting his wife and seeing his kids at Fizz's dad's home. Konrad and James took a drink of their coffee and bottle of water as Konrad speaks again.
Konrad Raab: "I am as well, but I do everything to be a better father than my dad ever was, and that's the way I prefer things to be. However, I won't lie; this whole DID thing does affect me as I don't know much about it."
James Evans: "Time will come for you to know more about it but be careful that you don't lose control of yourself as I did. So far, you're a better man than I've been with my wrestling career side of things. Heck, I like the whole balance thing you talk about, it makes people understand you, including myself."
Konrad Raab: "It's something I needed, Erik in a way and Damian I won't lie did help me with it, I wasn't going to be controlled and be evil to hurt others all the time. I also am not going to be nice either, as my opponents tomorrow, they need to learn a thing or two about balance."
James Evans: "They do. It seems like you're taking the whole multiple personalities thing better now and using it to your advantage. You're a much better wrestler now because of it. Now I want to see you become an Adrenaline or US champion before you retire or even the SCW title."
Konrad nods at James as he stops shaking when James spoke about Konrad being a better man than James was in wrestling. James, however, had some more advice for Konrad as he finishes his coffee as Konrad drinks almost the whole bottle with some left in the bottle.
James Evans: "Just make sure if your kids start developing any sort of mental health issues, you need to teach them all about it and be aware of your kids if they start to harm themselves, to get them to talk to you about it."
Konrad Raab: "I will, especially I've made suicidal attempts more than once, but of course I will keep an eye out on their behaviour and things they'll say to themselves and myself."
James Evans: "You'll always have my number if you ever want to talk about mental health as you know me with it. I hope this has helped you talking to me about it and I'm glad you did as it's clear you didn't know much about it."
Konrad Raab: "I don't, and I'm going to learn so much more from Schneider this week. I'll see you around."
Konrad finishes his bottle of water, and he along with James, got up and placed their paper cups and bottle in the bin before they both walk out of Costa Coffee. They shake hands before they went their separate ways with Konrad heading straight back to his wife, making sure she's alright after spending time at her mother's grave in their hotel room.
As he spent most of the day with her, when Fizz went to sleep, he leaves the room. Konrad goes in the lobby where at the time of night, it was peaceful as he opens the laptop, logs in the Wi-Fi internet and starts to speak about the match against Cassidy Carter and Scarlet Grey.
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Balance needs to be required on both opponents tomorrow night youtube.com shoot. (On Camera)
“You know, I can't tell the differences between both of my opponents tonight because Cassidy Carter and Scarlet Grey have so much in common, except they look and act differently. Cassidy going for comedy and is married to Ace, while Scarlet is known to be a homewrecker. Other than that, have any of you noticed that they asked and demanded title shots as of late?
I know Scarlet Grey has, according to her last video. Sure, you've had a successful tag run with Ruby, despite not winning the tag titles and won a few matches against top talent. Do you honestly think getting Datura injured for the rest of the year gets you a title shot? No, it doesn't. The reason why you've not been getting title shots is that you haven't earned one. You haven't done anything to warrant a title shot. You also lack balance in a way that you need to learn to work hard and win a few matches or two. I never demanded or asked for a title shot, but what I was going to do was ask for a title contention match against somebody so that I could prove myself. Have you tried that, Scarlet?
No, because you wouldn't have the guts. Also, you'd instead pick men who have loved ones than ones who are single and title shots anyway. All male wrestlers aren't here for relationships, well the majority of them aren't, they are here to wrestle, at least I am, not chasing people to be in a relationship with and try to destroy relationships. I'd be offended if you wanted to chase me and I don't want you because you're not my type. Although you have changed, I haven't seen much from you, considering you would've had an Adrenaline title shot, had you defeated Asher Hayes, but you didn't.
As for Cassidy, you're worse than Scarlet, at least she comes here and wrestles every week, unlike yourself, showing up whenever you want, making yourself just as bad as Syren these days, laziness. We've not heard or seen you for a while since you lost against Drake Hemingway back in September. Yet, you've had the decency on asking for an SCW title again?
Seriously, Cassidy, you've not done anything to warrant a title shot either, possibly more undeserving than Scarlet is. You need to earn title shots as well, more importantly, show up, at least Scarlet's committed being here and showing up every single week, wanting to prove herself, something we can't say about you as of late. You're disrespectful to every hard worker in this company. Then again, you'll never be balanced with being entertaining and taking wrestling seriously at the same time.
Then again, I'm not surprised, considering the stunt you pulled with the Television title you stole last year from Josh Hudson because Josh didn't want to chase after you for it. It shows you'll do anything to get free titles and free title shots because while you are talented as a wrestler, of course, I have to say that after losing against you, it's a shame your talent, especially right now is hidden from reaching to your full potential.
You will see what The Iced Rainbow who's balanced with his life can do to the pair of unbalanced wrestlers tomorrow night in my home continent. It makes me proud to wrestle Scarlet and Cassidy, despite how unbalanced and demanding my opponents are. I'm always proud to wrestle for all of you British fans.
I have names of Sienna Swann, Bree Lancester and Syren on the list I hope to face in solo's competition as I've been here for almost five years and not once have I faced them one on one or in the case of Sienna, not once at all, except Sienna and Bree are champions. I want to earn title shots before facing them, but Syren isn't a champion so; therefore, I can challenge her for a match at the next PPV so Syren, I want to face you at the next PPV. I want to see what you're made of to test myself against a former SCW champion and teach you a thing or two to not demand title shots you've not deserved and get you to be balanced again.
Do you both know why I was going to demand a title contention match? Because I wanted to work for it. I don't want or need to ask and demand title shots because I want to show my talent out in the ring and to win matches fair and square. After I've dealt with you both, I will face Regan Street, which has been a long time coming to tackle unfinished business once and for all that I'm excited for next week I believe the match will be on.
While I lost a chance to face Bree for the US title, that's still not stopped me from wanting the title contention match for the belt, it only fuels me even more, and I will earn my way to getting another title contendership match to win it finally, but I can wait for that, something Cassidy and Scarlet can't, and it's because of their impatience it will cost them.
It will cost them to lose the match; especially they'll overlook me which I know will be the case, especially with Cassidy, because I'm a bigger threat than I was last year. Only Alistaire and Tommy Valentine have beaten me, since Rise To Greatness because I've been focused and been balanced with myself, getting better in the ring.
I will win tomorrow night because not only it's in my home continent but also got a far better win-loss record than both of them this year and will accomplish defeating them either by pinfall or submission by pure skill. Bring everything you have ladies, go ahead and injure me, Scarlet, but even if you do damage on my body, I will still go out there and wrestle because I never give up and I will continue to wrestle. Prepare yourselves to be Iceinated by The Iced Rainbow."