My Sincerest Apologies

[Rachel Foxx]

I want to start by giving my deepest apologies to Olek, my recent opponents, those i collaborate with, and to the fed as a whole. I know I have flaked quite a bit lately, and I cannot apologize enough for this.  I usually like to keep my real and RP lives separate, but I feel I need to at least explain myself.  Over the last few years, I've been dealing with pretty serious depression. Over the summer, I thought I had it in check.  Between meds and therapy, it seemed things were taking a turn, but now it seems that it has made a comeback.  As I know there are some of you here who are dealing with the same thing, you know how it feels.  I have a head full of RP ideas, but actually sitting down and writing them out feels like a monumental task.  The simplest things, like getting out of bed and getting dressed feel like impossible tasks.  

I'm not trying to use this as an excuse, I am merely trying to explain myself.  As I have a bit of free time in the next few days, I am going to sit down and do some writing.  I have a Cassidy CD in my head, plus two half written CDs for newer characters that I need to finish writing.  I am giving myself one last chance with Cassidy.  If I no show one more show, I am placing her on LOA for a while.  


Again, I apologize to each and every one of you, and I hope you can forgive me.