03-10-2020, 11:44 PM
OOC: Best of luck Fizz. I hope you enjoy and everyone else does too.
The Times They Are a Changing
Hello! Hello! Hello!
And how are all my lovelies doing this week? What a difference a week makes to, am I right? Last week, I am getting ready for another opportunity to be a champion, and this week?
This week, I am the champion baby, the two-time SCW Television Champion to be exact, which is definitely exciting for me, and hopefully it is exciting for all of you also. Busy, busy, busy as ever though, that is what professional wrestling is keeping me nowadays, but if I am completely honest, I can’t get enough of being on the road and getting meet each and every one of you wonderful fans at every city I am going to next. Just this week for example I am going to be in Nashville, Tennessee for SCW Breakdown, Sunday in Memphis, Tennessee for the SCW Retribution pay per view, and then finally next Tuesday I will finish my busier than usual week even for me in Montreal, Quebec, Canada for GCW Livewire.
Do you think that sounds like enough to keep me busy?
I love being busy because if I wasn’t busy I would be with Victor all of the time, and while that might sound enticing initially, I don’t really believe that two people, even people who are in love like Victor and I are can be around each other 24-7, it just is not practical. Sometimes I would be getting on Victor’s last nerve, and just like I bet that there are other times that Victor would be on my last nerve too, though you would be hard pressed to get me to admit that to him. It is just the way of the world though, men and women are different, even two people in general are different and sometimes those differences can and probably will cause disagreements.
So, I have enough to keep busy and then some. Like as soon as SCW Breakdown in Denver was over last week, I flew straight to Nashville, which I have already mentioned is the site of SCW Breakdown this Wednesday. Nashville is of course a place that is near and dear to my heart, because my Daddy spent sometime there growing up, it was where he went to high school even. So, I like to tour through different places in Nashville and imagine what it was like for my Daddy before he became famous.
Unfortunately, I was not in Nashville for a good reason last week because I there and in Cookeville, Tennessee also helping to clean up from the tornadoes that ravaged the area last Tuesday night and early Wednesday morning. 25 people lost their lives, and another 88 people were injured in the storms, and numerous buildings were completely destroyed. Victor and I were on the ground in both cities, helping with the cleanup and just meeting people and trying to spread love to communities that desperately need it amidst a lot of change, change that these people obviously did not want.
The thing is about change whether we want change or not, it going to happen. I personally hate change for the most part, as I grow very accustomed to doing things a certain way, like a set routine and I am not fond of being forced to change things. Recently, people have suggested to me that I make some changes in my career and as you can imagine, I do not like these changes either, but like I said changes are going to happen all of the time whether I like them or not, and people I trust are going to need to help me in getting prepared for them.
That is exactly what was happening this morning too, while I was working out with Amy at BlackOut Academy, when I received a surprise….
*Off Camera*
BlackOut Academy
New Orleans, Louisiana
Tuesday, March 9, 2020
7 am
Kelsai: So just for reviewing, what you are telling me is that you think that it is a good idea for me to start telling people how I really feel in all of my shoots even if it might make people upset with me?
It is the early morning hours and so like we often are during that time, Amy and I are the only ones at BlackOut Academy. I take a couple jabs at the heavy bag, while Amy begins to answer me, not mincing any words, just like normal.
Amy: I think that you have to be smart, but yes, even if it means making a few people upset you need to start really letting people hear how you feel, ok?
I keep working on the heavy bag, trying to collect my thoughts, and make sure I have exactly what it is that I want to say before I continue to discuss things with Amy.
Kelsai: You have always told me though that I should trust my first instincts because they are usually correct. If I were being honest then, I would have to say that my first instinct is to keep doing things the way that I always have.
It is not very often that we disagree on things like I can already tell we are going to now, but when we do, it usually ends up with me not liking it. I take another shot at the heavy, working out a little frustration as I do.
Amy: That is just the thing though Kelsai, you can't keep doing things the way that you always have, because if you do that you will never evolve and reach your truest potential.
A swift kick right into the heavy bag and at least I can say that I am getting a good workout, regardless of whether or not I like where this conversation is currently heading.
Kelsai: Why are we so concerned about whether or not I am reaching my truest potential? Last week, a just defeated Damian Angel to become a two-time SCW Television Champion. What is the matter with just letting enjoy that?
As usual when we are discussing things, Amy is like I was afraid of, not backing down without a fight. It is a trait that I always admire of hers but also drives me right up a wall in the rare occasion that we are not taking that same side of an issue.
Amy: Sure, you are the two-time and reigning Television Champion, but haven’t you given any thought as to anything you might want to be next in SCW?
Kelsai: I am not sure what it is that you mean Amy?
I fire another kick into middle of the heavy bag so hard that Amy who has been holding it, stumbles backward and nearly falls to the floor. I quickly come to her aid, though she really doesn’t need it.
Kelsai: Oh no, Amy!
Amy: Relax, relax, I am fine sweetie. I just wish that I realized you were going to start kicking the bag so hard. Why don’t we go over to the table over there where can’t talk about stuff for a few minutes alright?
Kelsai: Yes, that would be good. Are you sure that you are alright?
Amy: I told you sweetie I am just fine. Just a little startled. Let’s go over here and talk away from the bag for a bit.
Amy leads the way as we go over to sit down at a nearby table. I am still very upset with myself for playing a role in Amy nearly falling to the ground as I take my seat directly across from her.
Kelsai: I am really sorry that I alm….
Amy immediately interrupts and without her saying a word I know what I have done wrong already.
Amy: How many times do I need to tell you not to apologize to me for something?
Kelsai: It is a bad habit of mine I guess, and one that I am trying hard to correct.
Amy nods her head in agreement, and I know that we are going to have another teachable moment here. Amy and I have a lot of teachable moments together, but that is why she promised my Mom, her best friend that she would look out for me if anything happened to my her, though at the time Amy did not know that would be happening as soon as what it did
Amy: Yes it is, but I only say that because I care about you Kelsai. I want you to be confident in yourself, and when you always feel the need to apologize for what you are saying or what you are doing that does not sound confident. I told you that I was fine, we have gotten past it, plus you didn’t do anything wrong, so let’s just move on.
Kelsai: Alright Amy. So what did you want to discuss?
I had a pretty good idea of what she wanted to discuss with me already, but I figured that I would go ahead and let Amy take the lead here, because if on the off chance that I was wrong, we could avoid this discussion, which I would be more than happy to do. Amy smiled looking across the table while taking my hand in hers in the motherly way that she does with me sometimes and I knew that I was screwed. This was going to be a discussion that I wanted to avoid, and I would not be avoiding it today.
Amy: Kelsai, I don’t think I need to tell you how much you mean to me, or just how proud I am becoming of you.
Yep, darn it, we are going to talk about change. Nothing do I loathe talking about more than change. I swallow my pride, and encourage her because I really have no other alternative.
Kelsai: Yes, of course, and thank you. I have been trying really hard to continue to improve with every single match.
Amy: That really shows in your wrestling too. I have not told you this before now, partially because there is just so much going on at Breakdown anyway, and then you wanted to make sure that you talked to Peyton backstage, but I am so proud of you for regaining the SCW Television Championship. I want you not to lose sight of that because now I think it is time that we talk about your approach and your attitude.
My attitude? What are you talking about, Amy? I don’t understand what exactly you are talking about here.
Kelsai: My attitude? Have I been giving you the wrong impression here? I still love you and most people actually. That’s not going to change. I am who I am.
Amy: Yeah, your attitude toward other people has not changed at all, and that is what I wanted to discuss with you actually. Your are incredibly nice, and you are just one of the sweetest young women I have ever known. I don’t know anyone that doesn’t agree with that either. In fact, if I had a dollar for every time someone has said to me something to the effect of “Kelsai, isn’t she just the sweetest thing?” I could probably retire by now.
I laugh because all things considered Amy probably could retire if she really wanted to. Despite the fact that Amy never broadcasts it, she does have a considerable amount of money that she made in wrestling. Amy just smiles at me and continues.
Amy: I know why you are laughing and I get but my point is this; You are working way up at both GCW and SCW and as you work your way up there are going to be things that be expect from you, certain responsibilities that you will be expected to take on, and I just want to be sure that you are going to be ready for that.
Kelsai: What kinds of responsibilities are you talking about?
Amy is deep in thought for a moment, and I know that what she is thinking about must be serious.
Amy: Ok, I know how much you love other people, including the other people that you work with and there is nothing wrong with that. But there is a lot of politics that get played in wrestling backstage. I know that you have an opinion about some of this because we have talked about different things before. I think that the time has come that you need to let everyone know that you have an opinion, and that opinion does matter.
Kelsai: So, you think I need to stop being so nice to people then, right?
Amy: I believe that it is alright if you want say things like “Let Love In” or “Kelsai Loves All of You”. It’s what you are known for and you live it too. You really do love other people as much as you can, and it is one of things that people have come to expect from you so I will not take that away from you. I still want you to be you. The trouble becomes however, if you are never speaking you mind involving things are happening. Them people start to believe that either you don’t have an opinion, or that you just don’t, and like I said I know that neither one of those is true because we have talked about things here between the two of us.
I started to think about everything that Amy was saying. She was right, I did have an opinion about a lot of things, both in GCW and SCW. However, I was also 23 years old, one of the youngest people on in roster, I have wrestled for a little over 14 months in wrestling total, and about 10 months in SCW. Would people even listen to someone who was so inexperienced? Maybe it was time to find out what Amy thought, and if it was, Amy was already a step ahead of me.
Amy: Tell me what you are thinking sweetie?
Kelsai: I haven’t really been in professional wrestling for that long, and I am really young for a professional wrestler. With so many other people that are older and so much more experienced, whose is to say that people will even start to listen to me, if I started to give my opinion?
Amy: Kelsai, you are one of the most loved people in all of professional wrestling. People adore you no matter what arena we go to in the United States or around the world for that matter. What you say about different things will matter to these people who listen to you and there are droves of them, because you matter to these people. I don’t think this, I know this.
I start to think again. I have talked with Victor about this some recently, but only Victor at this point. There are several things that I would like to get off of my chest, but I also realize that if I start to talk about how I feel about things than there is going to be no holding back.
Kelsai: I am not even sure where to begin honestly. Do I start giving my opinions about different things that are going in my promos?
Amy: Yes, that is exactly what I am talking about. Though, I do not expect you to throw yourself into this all at once. You will learn to how to tell people how you really feel as time goes on.
Kelsai: Alright, but where do I begin? Because honestly there are a lot of things going on in both GCW and SCW that I would like to tell people about how I feel, I just don’t know where I should begin?
If I was not listening so closely for what Amy was going to say next, I almost never would have heard would it was that this other person who must have joined us behind me had to say, but luckily I did hear him.
Voice: How about you start with everything that you felt when Blake refused to join your team for Trios when you go to talk to him later on this week.
I turned around and standing right there before me was my husband Victor. I got up and gave him the biggest hug.
Kelsai: Baby, what are you doing here and how long have you been here?
Victor: Amy told me that I could come into the Academy told workout if I wanted to get ready for my match against Dustin in GCW and I have heard must of the conversation between you and Amy. I stand by my suggestion too. I think that when you go out to California and see Blake later this week in between Breakdown and Retribution, you need tell him how you really felt about him refusing to join your team for Trios.
Amy: Kelsai, what is Victor talking about?
I turned around and looked at Amy with Victor where he always is, by my side.
Kelsai: I have been angry with Blake ever since he refused to be apart of my team for Trios. I was lucky enough that I had Jason to be there on my team for me, but I am still very bitter toward Blake about that, but I still have not told Blake how I really feel.
Amy: Well, I am never going to tell you what to do…
Victor: And neither am I.
Amy: But I think that you just for you need to tell Blake how you really feel.
Both Victor and Amy look at me now, though my mind is still not made up, as I have a lot of love for Blake too, he is my brother, and I do not want to say or do anything to jeopardize that.
Kelsai: I don’t know what I am going to do honestly, but I will at least consider it.
As we continued to walk and talk together, I couldn’t help but think how this week could change everything, even as I admittedly hate change.
All I Want
Hellooooooooo Nashville!
How are all of my Lovelies there in the music city and every place else doing tonight?
I would like all of you to know a few things as I get ready for SCW Breakdown Wednesday night. First, I hope that all of you now even without me telling you just how much love I have for all of you. Yes, it is true that I would say that to every city in the world that we would be going to for Breakdown, but Nashville has a special place in my heart. As you know my Daddy went to high school here and I have spent a lot of time here trying to experience a lot of the same things that my Daddy experienced, in one of the most amazing cities in the world.
Second, I spent a lot of time in Nashville late last week, along with my husband, trying to help all of you pick up the pieces after the tornadoes the came through there the first part of the week. It has been such a tough time for me, because I did become a two-time SCW Television Champion last Wednesday in Denver, and I did challenge one of the best wrestlers in the world Peyton Rice to a match this coming Sunday at Retribution. I did both of those things knowing that as soon as that was over I was going to have to not go anywhere to celebrate my victory, but instead I was going to get on a plane and come to a wonderful city that has been in a lot of way a second home for me a see it completely and utterly destroyed.
Needless to say that was not a very fun plane ride at all for knowing what I was going to be walking into once the plane touched down, but then I started to think to myself if this was so bad for me, how had it been for all of you who had to actually live through the experience? Honestly, while I have gone through some pretty tough times in my life, I can honestly say that I have never imagined anything like that, and so no, I really do not know how all of you feel nor will I insult your intelligence and tell you that I do know how you feel. I can only say that just like I was late last week, I will try to listen to you when you tell me how you really feel, and you will always have that special place deep inside of my heart Nashville, and I know firsthand from last week already just how strong this music city can be, so I know that Nashville is going to comeback stronger than ever.
One of things we can do as entertainers is provide an escape for people dealing with time of trouble like the tornadoes here in Nashville last week. Nashville of course has a long history with people who are entertainers, though normally when we talk about entertainers in Nashville, we are talking about music and particularly country music, not professional wrestling. Tomorrow night however, SCW Breakdown is going to make our scheduled stop at Bridgestone Arena and we will be competing in some of the best professional wrestling that you are going to see anywhere in the world bar none, but I really hope that everyone that goes out to the ring tomorrow night remembers that we are entertainers that night in particularly. Because that might be the think that people in Nashville who do make it tomorrow night is entertainment, the chance to not think about all of the terrible things that have happened there recently, at least for a couple of hours.
My part in all of this is that I will be defending the SCW Television Championship against Konrad Raab. I know that this is a match that you have wanted for a very long time Konrad, because I was once it your shoes not to long ago, still having never experienced what it was like to taste gold in SCW. So I know just how badly you want not only to be in this match, but how much you would like to win this match also. You are also someone who I have a ton of respect for, someone who I am proud to call a friend and someone who I know has a great friendship with my manager Amy Chastaine, going back to her days as a competitor in SCW herself. In fact, were you not facing anybody else except for me tomorrow night, there is every chance that I would be pulling for you to get that first taste of gold in SCW.
The thing about it is Konrad, tomorrow night you are facing me, and I can’t cheer for you to win, to get your first taste of gold in SCW at my expense now can I?
Oh no, don’t get me wrong, I will be pulling for your Konrad to have the very best match that you can possibly have, because one of the thing that I want is every time out I want to have the very best match on the card. Every time out Konrad, and tomorrow night that might be even more true because of the connection that I have with the people of Nashville and all that they have been through in the last eight days. No, I am not conceited enough to think that even for a second that a victory by me might be comparable to someone who has just lost their home or worse, but what I need you to understand is because of those people and all that they have lost recently that will mean that I will have something a little extra tomorrow night, entertaining all of them.
I might jump just a little bit higher, or run even faster than normal. That doesn’t mean that I am discrediting what you bring to the ring tomorrow night either. You are a powerful man, and you have a wealth of experience. I am the champion though, and I will try to do everything in my power to make sure that I stay away from your power, that your experience does not become a factor, and I believe that unlike the last time when I was the SCW Television Champion that I will be successful too.
As much as it pains me to say so in one respect, I do believe that as after tomorrow night that will still be looking for your first taste of gold because I plan to walk out of the Bridgestone Arena the SCW Television Champion.
More importantly to me though, I sincerely hope that I am walking out the Bridgestone Arena still your friend too. I hope that we go out to the ring tomorrow night and between the two of us we have the best match on the card. I want for us to go out there in front of all of those people in Nashville and….
LET LOVE IN!
…to some people that need it so desperately.
And when the match is over, I truly do hope for you Nashville that Konrad and I have made some memories for you together because maybe more than I have ever met this before….
KELSAI LOVES ALL OF YOU!
The Times They Are a Changing
Hello! Hello! Hello!
And how are all my lovelies doing this week? What a difference a week makes to, am I right? Last week, I am getting ready for another opportunity to be a champion, and this week?
This week, I am the champion baby, the two-time SCW Television Champion to be exact, which is definitely exciting for me, and hopefully it is exciting for all of you also. Busy, busy, busy as ever though, that is what professional wrestling is keeping me nowadays, but if I am completely honest, I can’t get enough of being on the road and getting meet each and every one of you wonderful fans at every city I am going to next. Just this week for example I am going to be in Nashville, Tennessee for SCW Breakdown, Sunday in Memphis, Tennessee for the SCW Retribution pay per view, and then finally next Tuesday I will finish my busier than usual week even for me in Montreal, Quebec, Canada for GCW Livewire.
Do you think that sounds like enough to keep me busy?
I love being busy because if I wasn’t busy I would be with Victor all of the time, and while that might sound enticing initially, I don’t really believe that two people, even people who are in love like Victor and I are can be around each other 24-7, it just is not practical. Sometimes I would be getting on Victor’s last nerve, and just like I bet that there are other times that Victor would be on my last nerve too, though you would be hard pressed to get me to admit that to him. It is just the way of the world though, men and women are different, even two people in general are different and sometimes those differences can and probably will cause disagreements.
So, I have enough to keep busy and then some. Like as soon as SCW Breakdown in Denver was over last week, I flew straight to Nashville, which I have already mentioned is the site of SCW Breakdown this Wednesday. Nashville is of course a place that is near and dear to my heart, because my Daddy spent sometime there growing up, it was where he went to high school even. So, I like to tour through different places in Nashville and imagine what it was like for my Daddy before he became famous.
Unfortunately, I was not in Nashville for a good reason last week because I there and in Cookeville, Tennessee also helping to clean up from the tornadoes that ravaged the area last Tuesday night and early Wednesday morning. 25 people lost their lives, and another 88 people were injured in the storms, and numerous buildings were completely destroyed. Victor and I were on the ground in both cities, helping with the cleanup and just meeting people and trying to spread love to communities that desperately need it amidst a lot of change, change that these people obviously did not want.
The thing is about change whether we want change or not, it going to happen. I personally hate change for the most part, as I grow very accustomed to doing things a certain way, like a set routine and I am not fond of being forced to change things. Recently, people have suggested to me that I make some changes in my career and as you can imagine, I do not like these changes either, but like I said changes are going to happen all of the time whether I like them or not, and people I trust are going to need to help me in getting prepared for them.
That is exactly what was happening this morning too, while I was working out with Amy at BlackOut Academy, when I received a surprise….
*Off Camera*
BlackOut Academy
New Orleans, Louisiana
Tuesday, March 9, 2020
7 am
Kelsai: So just for reviewing, what you are telling me is that you think that it is a good idea for me to start telling people how I really feel in all of my shoots even if it might make people upset with me?
It is the early morning hours and so like we often are during that time, Amy and I are the only ones at BlackOut Academy. I take a couple jabs at the heavy bag, while Amy begins to answer me, not mincing any words, just like normal.
Amy: I think that you have to be smart, but yes, even if it means making a few people upset you need to start really letting people hear how you feel, ok?
I keep working on the heavy bag, trying to collect my thoughts, and make sure I have exactly what it is that I want to say before I continue to discuss things with Amy.
Kelsai: You have always told me though that I should trust my first instincts because they are usually correct. If I were being honest then, I would have to say that my first instinct is to keep doing things the way that I always have.
It is not very often that we disagree on things like I can already tell we are going to now, but when we do, it usually ends up with me not liking it. I take another shot at the heavy, working out a little frustration as I do.
Amy: That is just the thing though Kelsai, you can't keep doing things the way that you always have, because if you do that you will never evolve and reach your truest potential.
A swift kick right into the heavy bag and at least I can say that I am getting a good workout, regardless of whether or not I like where this conversation is currently heading.
Kelsai: Why are we so concerned about whether or not I am reaching my truest potential? Last week, a just defeated Damian Angel to become a two-time SCW Television Champion. What is the matter with just letting enjoy that?
As usual when we are discussing things, Amy is like I was afraid of, not backing down without a fight. It is a trait that I always admire of hers but also drives me right up a wall in the rare occasion that we are not taking that same side of an issue.
Amy: Sure, you are the two-time and reigning Television Champion, but haven’t you given any thought as to anything you might want to be next in SCW?
Kelsai: I am not sure what it is that you mean Amy?
I fire another kick into middle of the heavy bag so hard that Amy who has been holding it, stumbles backward and nearly falls to the floor. I quickly come to her aid, though she really doesn’t need it.
Kelsai: Oh no, Amy!
Amy: Relax, relax, I am fine sweetie. I just wish that I realized you were going to start kicking the bag so hard. Why don’t we go over to the table over there where can’t talk about stuff for a few minutes alright?
Kelsai: Yes, that would be good. Are you sure that you are alright?
Amy: I told you sweetie I am just fine. Just a little startled. Let’s go over here and talk away from the bag for a bit.
Amy leads the way as we go over to sit down at a nearby table. I am still very upset with myself for playing a role in Amy nearly falling to the ground as I take my seat directly across from her.
Kelsai: I am really sorry that I alm….
Amy immediately interrupts and without her saying a word I know what I have done wrong already.
Amy: How many times do I need to tell you not to apologize to me for something?
Kelsai: It is a bad habit of mine I guess, and one that I am trying hard to correct.
Amy nods her head in agreement, and I know that we are going to have another teachable moment here. Amy and I have a lot of teachable moments together, but that is why she promised my Mom, her best friend that she would look out for me if anything happened to my her, though at the time Amy did not know that would be happening as soon as what it did
Amy: Yes it is, but I only say that because I care about you Kelsai. I want you to be confident in yourself, and when you always feel the need to apologize for what you are saying or what you are doing that does not sound confident. I told you that I was fine, we have gotten past it, plus you didn’t do anything wrong, so let’s just move on.
Kelsai: Alright Amy. So what did you want to discuss?
I had a pretty good idea of what she wanted to discuss with me already, but I figured that I would go ahead and let Amy take the lead here, because if on the off chance that I was wrong, we could avoid this discussion, which I would be more than happy to do. Amy smiled looking across the table while taking my hand in hers in the motherly way that she does with me sometimes and I knew that I was screwed. This was going to be a discussion that I wanted to avoid, and I would not be avoiding it today.
Amy: Kelsai, I don’t think I need to tell you how much you mean to me, or just how proud I am becoming of you.
Yep, darn it, we are going to talk about change. Nothing do I loathe talking about more than change. I swallow my pride, and encourage her because I really have no other alternative.
Kelsai: Yes, of course, and thank you. I have been trying really hard to continue to improve with every single match.
Amy: That really shows in your wrestling too. I have not told you this before now, partially because there is just so much going on at Breakdown anyway, and then you wanted to make sure that you talked to Peyton backstage, but I am so proud of you for regaining the SCW Television Championship. I want you not to lose sight of that because now I think it is time that we talk about your approach and your attitude.
My attitude? What are you talking about, Amy? I don’t understand what exactly you are talking about here.
Kelsai: My attitude? Have I been giving you the wrong impression here? I still love you and most people actually. That’s not going to change. I am who I am.
Amy: Yeah, your attitude toward other people has not changed at all, and that is what I wanted to discuss with you actually. Your are incredibly nice, and you are just one of the sweetest young women I have ever known. I don’t know anyone that doesn’t agree with that either. In fact, if I had a dollar for every time someone has said to me something to the effect of “Kelsai, isn’t she just the sweetest thing?” I could probably retire by now.
I laugh because all things considered Amy probably could retire if she really wanted to. Despite the fact that Amy never broadcasts it, she does have a considerable amount of money that she made in wrestling. Amy just smiles at me and continues.
Amy: I know why you are laughing and I get but my point is this; You are working way up at both GCW and SCW and as you work your way up there are going to be things that be expect from you, certain responsibilities that you will be expected to take on, and I just want to be sure that you are going to be ready for that.
Kelsai: What kinds of responsibilities are you talking about?
Amy is deep in thought for a moment, and I know that what she is thinking about must be serious.
Amy: Ok, I know how much you love other people, including the other people that you work with and there is nothing wrong with that. But there is a lot of politics that get played in wrestling backstage. I know that you have an opinion about some of this because we have talked about different things before. I think that the time has come that you need to let everyone know that you have an opinion, and that opinion does matter.
Kelsai: So, you think I need to stop being so nice to people then, right?
Amy: I believe that it is alright if you want say things like “Let Love In” or “Kelsai Loves All of You”. It’s what you are known for and you live it too. You really do love other people as much as you can, and it is one of things that people have come to expect from you so I will not take that away from you. I still want you to be you. The trouble becomes however, if you are never speaking you mind involving things are happening. Them people start to believe that either you don’t have an opinion, or that you just don’t, and like I said I know that neither one of those is true because we have talked about things here between the two of us.
I started to think about everything that Amy was saying. She was right, I did have an opinion about a lot of things, both in GCW and SCW. However, I was also 23 years old, one of the youngest people on in roster, I have wrestled for a little over 14 months in wrestling total, and about 10 months in SCW. Would people even listen to someone who was so inexperienced? Maybe it was time to find out what Amy thought, and if it was, Amy was already a step ahead of me.
Amy: Tell me what you are thinking sweetie?
Kelsai: I haven’t really been in professional wrestling for that long, and I am really young for a professional wrestler. With so many other people that are older and so much more experienced, whose is to say that people will even start to listen to me, if I started to give my opinion?
Amy: Kelsai, you are one of the most loved people in all of professional wrestling. People adore you no matter what arena we go to in the United States or around the world for that matter. What you say about different things will matter to these people who listen to you and there are droves of them, because you matter to these people. I don’t think this, I know this.
I start to think again. I have talked with Victor about this some recently, but only Victor at this point. There are several things that I would like to get off of my chest, but I also realize that if I start to talk about how I feel about things than there is going to be no holding back.
Kelsai: I am not even sure where to begin honestly. Do I start giving my opinions about different things that are going in my promos?
Amy: Yes, that is exactly what I am talking about. Though, I do not expect you to throw yourself into this all at once. You will learn to how to tell people how you really feel as time goes on.
Kelsai: Alright, but where do I begin? Because honestly there are a lot of things going on in both GCW and SCW that I would like to tell people about how I feel, I just don’t know where I should begin?
If I was not listening so closely for what Amy was going to say next, I almost never would have heard would it was that this other person who must have joined us behind me had to say, but luckily I did hear him.
Voice: How about you start with everything that you felt when Blake refused to join your team for Trios when you go to talk to him later on this week.
I turned around and standing right there before me was my husband Victor. I got up and gave him the biggest hug.
Kelsai: Baby, what are you doing here and how long have you been here?
Victor: Amy told me that I could come into the Academy told workout if I wanted to get ready for my match against Dustin in GCW and I have heard must of the conversation between you and Amy. I stand by my suggestion too. I think that when you go out to California and see Blake later this week in between Breakdown and Retribution, you need tell him how you really felt about him refusing to join your team for Trios.
Amy: Kelsai, what is Victor talking about?
I turned around and looked at Amy with Victor where he always is, by my side.
Kelsai: I have been angry with Blake ever since he refused to be apart of my team for Trios. I was lucky enough that I had Jason to be there on my team for me, but I am still very bitter toward Blake about that, but I still have not told Blake how I really feel.
Amy: Well, I am never going to tell you what to do…
Victor: And neither am I.
Amy: But I think that you just for you need to tell Blake how you really feel.
Both Victor and Amy look at me now, though my mind is still not made up, as I have a lot of love for Blake too, he is my brother, and I do not want to say or do anything to jeopardize that.
Kelsai: I don’t know what I am going to do honestly, but I will at least consider it.
As we continued to walk and talk together, I couldn’t help but think how this week could change everything, even as I admittedly hate change.
All I Want
Hellooooooooo Nashville!
How are all of my Lovelies there in the music city and every place else doing tonight?
I would like all of you to know a few things as I get ready for SCW Breakdown Wednesday night. First, I hope that all of you now even without me telling you just how much love I have for all of you. Yes, it is true that I would say that to every city in the world that we would be going to for Breakdown, but Nashville has a special place in my heart. As you know my Daddy went to high school here and I have spent a lot of time here trying to experience a lot of the same things that my Daddy experienced, in one of the most amazing cities in the world.
Second, I spent a lot of time in Nashville late last week, along with my husband, trying to help all of you pick up the pieces after the tornadoes the came through there the first part of the week. It has been such a tough time for me, because I did become a two-time SCW Television Champion last Wednesday in Denver, and I did challenge one of the best wrestlers in the world Peyton Rice to a match this coming Sunday at Retribution. I did both of those things knowing that as soon as that was over I was going to have to not go anywhere to celebrate my victory, but instead I was going to get on a plane and come to a wonderful city that has been in a lot of way a second home for me a see it completely and utterly destroyed.
Needless to say that was not a very fun plane ride at all for knowing what I was going to be walking into once the plane touched down, but then I started to think to myself if this was so bad for me, how had it been for all of you who had to actually live through the experience? Honestly, while I have gone through some pretty tough times in my life, I can honestly say that I have never imagined anything like that, and so no, I really do not know how all of you feel nor will I insult your intelligence and tell you that I do know how you feel. I can only say that just like I was late last week, I will try to listen to you when you tell me how you really feel, and you will always have that special place deep inside of my heart Nashville, and I know firsthand from last week already just how strong this music city can be, so I know that Nashville is going to comeback stronger than ever.
One of things we can do as entertainers is provide an escape for people dealing with time of trouble like the tornadoes here in Nashville last week. Nashville of course has a long history with people who are entertainers, though normally when we talk about entertainers in Nashville, we are talking about music and particularly country music, not professional wrestling. Tomorrow night however, SCW Breakdown is going to make our scheduled stop at Bridgestone Arena and we will be competing in some of the best professional wrestling that you are going to see anywhere in the world bar none, but I really hope that everyone that goes out to the ring tomorrow night remembers that we are entertainers that night in particularly. Because that might be the think that people in Nashville who do make it tomorrow night is entertainment, the chance to not think about all of the terrible things that have happened there recently, at least for a couple of hours.
My part in all of this is that I will be defending the SCW Television Championship against Konrad Raab. I know that this is a match that you have wanted for a very long time Konrad, because I was once it your shoes not to long ago, still having never experienced what it was like to taste gold in SCW. So I know just how badly you want not only to be in this match, but how much you would like to win this match also. You are also someone who I have a ton of respect for, someone who I am proud to call a friend and someone who I know has a great friendship with my manager Amy Chastaine, going back to her days as a competitor in SCW herself. In fact, were you not facing anybody else except for me tomorrow night, there is every chance that I would be pulling for you to get that first taste of gold in SCW.
The thing about it is Konrad, tomorrow night you are facing me, and I can’t cheer for you to win, to get your first taste of gold in SCW at my expense now can I?
Oh no, don’t get me wrong, I will be pulling for your Konrad to have the very best match that you can possibly have, because one of the thing that I want is every time out I want to have the very best match on the card. Every time out Konrad, and tomorrow night that might be even more true because of the connection that I have with the people of Nashville and all that they have been through in the last eight days. No, I am not conceited enough to think that even for a second that a victory by me might be comparable to someone who has just lost their home or worse, but what I need you to understand is because of those people and all that they have lost recently that will mean that I will have something a little extra tomorrow night, entertaining all of them.
I might jump just a little bit higher, or run even faster than normal. That doesn’t mean that I am discrediting what you bring to the ring tomorrow night either. You are a powerful man, and you have a wealth of experience. I am the champion though, and I will try to do everything in my power to make sure that I stay away from your power, that your experience does not become a factor, and I believe that unlike the last time when I was the SCW Television Champion that I will be successful too.
As much as it pains me to say so in one respect, I do believe that as after tomorrow night that will still be looking for your first taste of gold because I plan to walk out of the Bridgestone Arena the SCW Television Champion.
More importantly to me though, I sincerely hope that I am walking out the Bridgestone Arena still your friend too. I hope that we go out to the ring tomorrow night and between the two of us we have the best match on the card. I want for us to go out there in front of all of those people in Nashville and….
LET LOVE IN!
…to some people that need it so desperately.
And when the match is over, I truly do hope for you Nashville that Konrad and I have made some memories for you together because maybe more than I have ever met this before….
KELSAI LOVES ALL OF YOU!