Davis vs. Raab vs. Williams

[Konrad Raab]

Atlanta, Georgia. Friday 7th July. (Offline)

After I returned to the Atlanta Motor Speedway from visiting Atlanta Wrestling Association, telling the boys about the match they have coming up, I did so many interviews for the upcoming race. After that, as I went to my motorhome and closed the door behind me, I wondered, what do I do now? Because I was still angry with my divorce, I was forced to go through it, and my ex never wanted to see me again. I was so alone, never felt this crippling pain I had to witness in my life. I had to hide it from everyone besides NASCAR drivers as they weren't in the business. Still, I found it challenging to tell Ludvig, Dakon or even Ginny about my actual situation outside of wrestling, but I had to not tell them because I knew they would mention it and have every wrestler expose me for it right then. It was for my safety.

Because I already felt my life was over, and I had this feeling for a month now, and it doesn't feel like it will go away from me. It feels a never-ending circle, and I was slowly killing myself with every second. Because that is how worthless I am to the world. I went straight to bed, unable to take this as I heard a couple of drivers talking outside.

NASCAR driver 1: "How did that guy in that trailer do decent interviews like the divorce never affected him?"

NASCAR driver 2: "Because we know we must put shit behind us regarding interviews. Konrad needs a life apart from being in bed, and I'm willing to bet he's gripping his sheets for dear life because he feels like he's dying."

NASCAR driver 1: "We got to get him out of there and have a discussion because we can't cope with this any longer. We need the guy out of the motorhome and get him to enjoy himself like we go to a bowling club."

I imagined they were talking about a different Konrad as I pretended they were in a dream I was mentally having with them talking outside the trailer. I poured tears because I was so bored and my life was meaningless; primarily, I only existed for wrestling and my racing career. That's all I did in life because when I come home, I'm bored and have nobody but my dog to share things with, and that's not good enough. I continued to sleep.

NASCAR driver 2: "Yeah, he does love bowling, I saw him and Sammy Smith play the game a few weeks ago, and he was happy and laughing with him."

NASCAR driver 1: "I say we should take him bowling and have a friendly competition, taking his mind away from his empty life issues he's going through, and then, honestly, I'm not a part of this team you and Sammy are in, but he'll perform better for it."

NASCAR driver 2: "I agree, let's get him out of his motorhome and get him to play bowling, and he won't pay a damn thing."

All I heard was them agreeing to get someone out of the trailer, some name called Konrad. It wasn't about me; I imagined they were talking about a different Konrad because I didn't fancy doing anything tonight. However, it became apparent when two guys came into my trailer and removed covers from me, and he looked at the other driver.

NASCAR driver 2: "I told you he was. Hey, get your ass up, Konrad."

Konrad Raab: "No."

NASCAR driver 1: "Come on, Konrad, we want you to be happy and have fun. Because we know you've slacked off in Chicago, and we're not letting that happen again. Let's have a bowling competition between us so we can prepare you mentally for the race and forget about Luiza leaving you."

NASCAR driver 2: "Honestly, Konrad, she was no good for you if she couldn't support you in loving yourself. We care about you and want to take you out of this race track for fun. Please?"

I sat up on the bed, not knowing who I was talking to and the fact it was Martin Truex Jr and AJ Allmendinger talking to me to get me out to have fun, especially with AJ having a baby, which is why I haven't bothered him too much only made me feel better. It showed how much they care about me. I put on my shirt, boxer shorts, jeans and trainers.

AJ Allmendinger "Is this a yes?"

I nodded, barely able to speak because I was so down on myself and Martin, who had planned all of this, along with AJ. It had been a while since I went out with AJ because I wanted to back off from him because he and his wife were having a baby. But it was apparent she wasn't here.

Martin Truex Jr: "You're not paying a damn thing tonight. We'll pay everything for you because after what you've done for our team and for AJ with the baby shower, you need to be treated for once in your life."

AJ Allmendinger: "It'll get your ass out of this shitty situation. You need time with your mentor and best friend. As Martin said, me and him are paying for everything. We just want you to have fun."

Konrad Raab: "My time of having fun is gone; I want to en........"

Martin Truex Jr: "It's never gone, and we make sure it'll get you focused for the race tomorrow because you slacked off really bad, and I need to make sure you're mentally ready for the race."

I agreed as both Martin and AJ were right; I needed to get out of this dying lonely hell I was in because I couldn't cope, and they were right about me hiding what I really felt; I had to because I didn't want to ruin anything and had to talk about racing. At times I got asked about wrestling. As I would get paid for everything tonight, I only needed my phone and left everything in my motorhome.

Konrad Raab: "I'm sorry for making you both miserable."

AJ Allmendinger: "No, don't be sorry. Me and Martin know how much pain it is to go through a divorce. I told you, and it's not easy. You need this friendly competition of who will knock all the pins tonight. Forget this divorce nonsense."

Martin Truex Jr: "Besides, the team told me to take you out so you can be focused for the race, especially Sammy Smith, Ty Gibbs, and John Hunter Nemechek depend on you to do well. They need you to be a team player."

Of course, there was more to it than that, and I know Martin and AJ talked about the plan they had for me with the Cup Series race, but they weren't going to tell me, and I didn't want to know, and they were right, I had to be focused for them. So AJ ordered an Uber, and we got out of my trailer, not forgetting my keys obviously and locked up my trailer, and we went to wait outside the circuit for the Uber AJ ordered. We got in and drove straight to the bowling alley as I predicted they would, and we got out of the car and got to the desk, which was a reservation.

Konrad Raab: "You guys reserved this time with me?"

AJ Allmendinger: "Of course, we reserved a lane to play bowling in."

Martin Truex Jr: "Because, as we said, you needed it. Let's put our bowling shoes on and go to lane nineteen; ah, ironic when that's the number of my car."

AJ Allmendinger: "In the VIP area too."

That was something else I didn't expect, a VIP area without being disturbed by other fans, this was something different as I didn't want to interact with fans anyway because of how I was feeling, and I would interact with them if they wanted to meet me regardless, knowing they'd never get the chance to ever again, both wrestling and the racing world.

It was much quieter as we saw a few people up there, but we showed our tickets, and the security who stood outside the VIP area nodded and went upstairs to the VIP area. It was much quieter, and although it was for one game, I didn't care because I had been unhappy and crying the entire time, even in the car last night. I almost didn't show up for the show because the divorce affected me so much that I lost my focus on everything. As we were directed to our lane and AJ set everything up, Martin asked me a question.

Martin Truex Jr: "Konrad, what do you do for fun at home?"

Konrad Raab: "Honestly, nothing. Well, apart from when your team sent me a Playstation 5 at my Atlanta and Chicago homes with World of Outlaws and NASCAR Heat 5. Thank you because I considered getting one to play with because of my lacklustre life."

AJ Allmendinger: "Wow, that's an awesome present your team got you."

Martin Truex Jr: "Everyone in the team felt sorry for Konrad, and we're a family in Brad Rogers Racing. You do too much for our team. Are we ready?"

AJ Allmendinger: “We are.”

Konrad Raab: “Then, let's play.”

We did, and I, for the first time since Luiza divorced me, had the fun of my life. I should enhance the skateboarding ramps and streets in my home, but they weren't built for me to use, and I feel now that was a mistake because I would never get another skateboarding lady friend again. We all had one go, and AJ obviously got a strike because he's pretty good at bowling, while Martin and I missed. I got frustrated, knowing I wanted to have fun.

Martin Truex Jr: "Hey, don't worry about the losing part, have fun and focus on your championship rivals in Xfinity Series, including your teammates."

AJ Allmendinger: "He's not done too badly, honestly, this year, and he's improved a lot on road courses. More than enough improvement."

Martin Truex Jr: "He still struggles to find the balance of timing the corners, but he has improved dramatically on the aggressive driving and certainly when to brake and accelerate when he has to turn. Anyway, I heard you like to colour your books, right?"

Konrad Raab: "Yes, it gives me a way to get all my feelings out, and when I complete the page of the colouring book, it's like I accomplished something."

I hadn't told anyone apart from my ex's I do colouring before, and it was something I forgot I did to get my feelings out sometimes. Maybe I should do more of it while trying to discover who the fuck I am. I get my second turn as they put me first for some reason; mostly, it's to do with this being my day and for Martin to know me more, although AJ looked shocked at me while I picked up the ball and rolled it. I almost knocked all the pins down.

Konrad Raab: “Darn. Just one pin.”

AJ Allmendinger: "I didn't know you colour either. I should do it myself.

Konrad Raab: "I also want to do Skateboarding, Basketball, and learn Swedish; I got my reasons for that and Snowboarding."

Martin Truex Jr: "Damn, that's really cool."

They were silent as they wanted me to roll the ball, and they watched me rolling it, and I had a smile on my face, knowing I got a spare, the first time AJ and Martin saw a smile on my face. We had more turns with bowling. It was fun, and I enjoyed every minute of spending time with them. Even Martin and AJ got a couple of strikes, except for me, with just a spare; AJ got a spare, too. He was well ahead.

AJ Allmendinger: "I can't get this off my mind; why do you have reasons to learn Swedish?"

Konrad Raab: "You two will be the first outside of wrestling to know this, but I'm currently setting up a team where one of the members is from Norway."

Martin Truex Jr: “That Dakon dude?”

Konrad Raab: "Yeah, he's one of the members, but the other is from Sweden, Ludvig Eriksson. I'm setting up a tag team that I've been working for months to get set up to promote the wrestling school me and my twin brother are setting up in Germany, which only consists of European wrestlers known as The European Fiery Nation."

They looked at me with a widened face, knowing I said I never do tag team wrestling again, and AJ commented.

AJ Allmendinger: “For real?”

Konrad Raab: "Yes."

Martin Truex Jr: "Ah, that's what you both talked about outside the headquarters a few weeks ago? Awesome, and I know Dakon must've been the one who talked you into it."

Konrad Raab: "Yes, but he was right in many things that I needed to overcome my fear of, regarding trusting people and leading this team I have no experience with, even if my twin brother gave me some advice. I also needed to get out of my comfort zone. Ludvig said on the phone the other day and today when I went to see him and Dakon perform that tag teams were lacking hardcore wrestling, and I was like, damn, this nineteen-year-old kid is right; there aren't any hardcore tag teams around, barely any other ones you could boo."

They smiled at me for doing something I said I'd never do again, but this was different because it was my own team, something I had to do because nobody in SCW apart from Kimberly Williams would team with me. Still, she didn't suit the team vision I was looking for. I knew it was my go, and I picked up the ball, rolled, and suddenly scored a strike, and Martin and AJ cheered like mad over me doing so.

Martin Truex Jr: "We found some life in Konrad."

AJ Allmendinger: "Smart plan for us to take him here. We've also ordered a vegan burger and chips for you and a Diet Coke buddy. Oh, and I believe it's here."

The waiter brought the food AJ and Martin ordered for me to eat, which was brilliant because I hadn't eaten anything today, and my stomach was growling for food. Of course, they got themselves food, too; Martin got himself a meat burger, but AJ and I had a vegan burger. We finished the game. AJ won, and I came last with only two strikes, but Martin said it was about me having fun, and I did.

Konrad Raab: "I love that you two care so much about me having fun. Thank you for buying food and drink for me."

Martin Truex Jr: "It's a pleasure."

AJ Allmendinger: "We've also enjoyed ourselves because we weren't worried about if you're happy or going to end your life which we're glad you haven't. I understand you wanted to give me space because of the baby me and Tara got on the way, but you can always talk to us, even if we are sick of you."

Konrad Raab: “That means a lot. I have had a blast with you both tonight. Significantly it has cleared the stress away. But yeah, I have been working on this wrestling project for years, what took time was finding another member that wasn't from the well-known wrestling countries, and Dakon knew Ludvig, and that's why I want to learn Swedish."

I know it was more catching up with them about wrestling, but I haven't spoken to them about that at all since I got a divorce. I haven't talked to them about anything apart from racing, but I'm so grateful for them to take me to play bowling and eat food. I was happy for the two hours I spent with them.

Martin Truex Jr: "You're facing Justin Davis on Wednesday after that attack, bro; you're going for the Underground title again for that big PPV?"

Konrad Raab: "Rise To Greatness, yes. It wasn't my plans at all, to be honest, to go for the belt; it was to get my hands on Kandis."

AJ Allmendinger: "Fucking hell, you two still haven't had a match yet?"

Konrad Raab: "Nope. I had to tackle Ace Marshall all those months, and he's been blocking that match with me and Kandis too. I'm tired of waiting around to face Kandis, honestly. I don't even want the SCW title if she wins it. All I want is to beat the shit out of her. I know, ridiculous, right?"

Martin Truex Jr: "For sure. But this opportunity couldn't have come at a better time for you. Sure, you never asked, demanded, or even requested an Underground title shot, but you put yourself in that picture without doing anything, even if it's beating Justin."

I know I had neglected titles a lot in SCW, but that's what made me different to the rest of the wrestlers in SCW. I wasn't focused on winning championships. I didn't care about them because I could achieve more than just winning and losing something. Like, the Ace match was the best achievement I had all year round that didn't involve winning the god damn match because I battered the shit out of him, and that was my goal the entire time. Although I knew after finishing my vegan burger and chips, I had to explain to Martin why I did the action.

Konrad Raab: "Because he disrespected Kimberly Williams, the only wrestling friend I got and the only wrestler I have legit respect for in that company. I think the only wrestler outside of Dakon and Ludvig I have respect for, actually. She will come to the race one day as I gave her a ticket to go to any race and be accepted and a VIP pass. But I also remembered that she wanted to face me too. Still, I don't let people shit on Kimberly the way he did. Sure, she's champion, but it was a shitty way to make a mark on wanting that title, despite shitting on the division too."

AJ Allmendinger: "Wait, didn't you defeat that same Justin Davis guy last year when you fought for the Underground title?"

Konrad Raab: "Yep, that same dude, indeed. Anyway, we better get back to the track before we all get in trouble for breaking curfew. Thank you so much for today, and I will remember this day for a long time and in my second home city too."

Martin Truex Jr: "Never knew you had a home here, but I'm guessing it makes sense when your first ever NASCAR win came here. But you're more than welcome, buddy. Hopefully, you'll sleep happily and be focused on working with Ty, John and Sammy tomorrow to get one of you to victory lane."

It certainly has done that for me, and we did leave the bowling alley after returning the bowling shoes to get our shoes back. Even if I lost, and even if it was for one game that we spent two hours together, it was something I was going to remember, and I was happy because my two friends gave a shit about me and were there when I needed them. We returned to the track five minutes before curfew started and went straight to bed.

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Phoenix, Arizona. Thursday 13th July. (Offline)

Once again, I was in bed with a lady, but not a different lady this time. It happened to be with the same lady I also slept with on Tuesday night. For some reason, while I finally saw Jamie yesterday at the Wrestlestock festival, I kept seeing this same lady who had dark skin with dreadlocks black hair. I discovered her name was Jasmine Williams and kept getting attached to her. We had sex like the first meeting with had on Tuesday, and we saw each other again last night in the same stripper bar they had at the festival. We woke up in my hired apartment that I was staying in until today and then will return on Sunday night.

I woke up and kissed Jasmine on the lips as I had nearly the entire morning to talk to her; she placed her head on my chest, putting my arm around her as she woke up and smiled at me. These last two nights have been my best ones since before the divorce. I was beginning to think about this woman the more I saw her, even this morning, to grow even more attached to her, and she even saw me with my son, Jamie, yesterday. I wanted to get to know Jasmine more, and we kissed before I spoke with more questions.

Konrad Raab: "What's the deal with you being here?"

Jasmine Williams: "Honestly, I needed the money to go to California next week."

Konrad Raab: “For what?”

Jasmine Williams: "There's this event next week in California called X-Games where people do stunts on BMX and Motocross bikes."

Konrad Raab: "Ah, are you one of those extreme sports girls?"

Jasmine Williams: "Yes, I'm a skateboarder."

No wonder there was a connection between us because my third ex-wife was also a skateboarder. Still, Jasmine participates in skateboarding events and is more of a prominent name than my ex-wife. I saw her name on the X-Games website as I looked on my phone and saw her name listed on the skateboarding street and skateboarding vert competitions. It made me a happy man.

Konrad Raab: "Oh, you'd love my houses then. My ex-wife was a skateboarder; as much as I'm trying to forget about her, unlike her, you seem to be way more famous. Honestly, though, sucks you have to take on this stripping job to get yourself there."

Jasmine Williams: "I don't mind because I also came to see wrestling. It was perfect for me to get a job as a stripper here while watching wrestling and getting money to go to California next week for the X Games event. I have a feeling about you; you got something lined up, haven't you after wrestling on Thursday?"

Konrad Raab: "Yeah."

I had it with me in case I got lucky, and in this case, I think I did and didn't know at the time, but I began to have these warm, fuzzy feelings for her. I'm trying to hide that so she doesn't get suspicious of me falling for her, but I've done well so far. I dug out of my bag; I took the pass my ex-wife used from her. I zipped the bag up and showed Jasmine what I got.

Konrad Raab: "Because I've really enjoyed my time with you, and you've made me the happiest man on earth by listening to me and this love-making time we had, which has gone down really well, would you come with me to see me race at NASCAR Xfinity Series New Hampshire race?"

Jasmine Williams: "Is this a date?"

Konrad Raab: "No. Just want someone to keep me company, so I won't be bored, crying myself to sleep like I've been every time I've been to races."

Jasmine Williams: "I didn't know until yesterday you were a NASCAR driver. I have never seen NASCAR in my life. Of course, I come to watch you race; it will be a fun time."

I put the New Hampshire Saturday ticket, the VIP pass, the trailer pass and the trailer key inside the ticket holder and placed it around her neck. In a way, it was a date when you think about it, but I generally wanted to keep someone company. Also, part of me was having strong feelings for her. I fucked many women, but none I've had these intense feelings as I did with Jasmine. Primarily I got a boner once again, which got me embarrassed as fuck.

Konrad Raab: “Yes, it will be. I got business to take care of, wrestling-wise, and you'll meet me at the New Hampshire Motor Speedway race. That's what you got to look out for. After my match, I'm not doing anything anyway, and the wrestling companies know I do NASCAR and take part in the Xfinity Series championship. Which is why I got to be at every Xfinity Series race."

Jasmine Williams: "I will meet you there."

She looked downstairs and saw my boner popping out.

Jasmine Williams: "Again, someone came to say hello.

Konrad Raab: "I know, embarrassing."

Jasmine Williams: "Aww, don't be. Something tells me about this connection we've been having."

Konrad Raab: "I don't want to think about that. I got to discover who I am and love myself at the same time because I hate the man I am right now, which is partly the reason for my anger, apart from my dad beating me up all the time, the divorce and wrestlers not wanting to be my friend, apart from Kimberly Williams."

I paused as she laid on me once again, and I kissed her cheek as she looked into my eyes, trying to cover my boner because it was embarrassing, but she uncovered my hands to see it because I didn't know if my body could control itself when I'm around her.

Konrad Raab: "Also, I'm not sure if you can handle seeing me be violent in the ring to beat the hell out of everyone around me, seeing their blood, cuts and bruises I do to them because that and sex are the only things in life that make me happy. I won't hurt you for a second."

Jasmine Williams: "I've had plenty of scars from my falls in skateboarding, and although some of the cuts and burns you inflicted on yourself kind of make me ill at times, it's, as I said, what you do in wrestling."

Konrad Raab: "Yeah, it is from wrestling some of it, but I've been inflicting them myself, too, because it made me feel better when I feel pain mentally. Could you handle seeing me be violent in the ring and my explosive anger?"

Jasmine Williams: "As long as you don't use your anger at me, I think I can cope with that because that doesn't matter because you've not shown me anger as much as I've seen it in the ring."

She started to feel my chest, and I was like oh no, because it will start me up to have sex with her. I was lost for words, and she took the lanyard off her neck and kissed my chest.

Jasmine Williams: "But you hide the nice part of you, and you need to show everyone that. You're so tender to touch, and when I touch you, you're a different guy, like a nice guy, and you are too nice. Almost like your a big softie."

Konrad Raab: "I can't in front of these wrestlers because I'd be a doormat to them. It's why I had to be aggressive and angry all the time. This touch feels good. My body can't resist; that's it."

I couldn't resist her even when she touched my chest and then touched my boner, all bets were off and licked her pussy before I placed my penis in her, and we fucked for six minutes before I cummed inside of her once again because I couldn't resist. But that was another thing that there was a connection about with her, our sex never lasted longer than ten minutes, and it was a fantastic feeling.

Jasmine Williams: "I've enjoyed every love-making we've done. Come on, let's get up and head back towards Wrestlestock Festival. I can handle the violence you do in the ring, and I can handle you brutalising opponents."

Honestly, that only made things difficult for me because there was clearly something there as we laughed and talked. Jasmine told me she was thirty-two years old, more than perfect as I didn't want to date anyone too young as I did last time, but I had to date people younger because people that were my age, they weren't active with their jobs.

We got up and dressed as we both pissed, washed and drank so much water with Jasmine, wearing the lanyard I gave her with everything with NASCAR details Luiza had before she divorced me. We got in my car to return to the Wrestlestock Festival in the Sonoran Desert, Arizona. We kissed before we went our separate ways.