10-20-2018, 04:22 PM
ooc somehow got this done. good luck wes.
Bianca Evans - What i Deserve.
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I want to be more....
I train every day... wake up and work out till it hurts. I look in the mirror and I see every flaw. I see everything thats wrong with me. I see everything i hate about myself. I want to be better i want to be more then i am. I look back at these last few months. I need this...i need to beat Katie Steward...its not just a match...it is my career my life. I deserve this i deserve to be the best i deserve to have that torch passed to me.
But i wouldnt admit it to any one even Chad. But I'm scared...scared im not good enough yet. Scared that I'm not on the level of a legend like Katie Steward. I beat Gigi but beating the princess as the queen.
I look at the knuckles on my wrist moving my fingers along the platinum. I took them from Gigi during our match in part
I'm nervous why the fuck am i nervous...why the fuck am i so uneasy...Its not like no one has beaten Katie. But no...this is more then that. This is more for me then any of them. This is more for me because this moment if i beat Katie if I am able to claim the title of Goddess if I am able to beat Katie i will prove myself worthy of Chad. I will prove my self more then what people see me as.
But Goddess's they dont doubt themselve they dont feel doubt the way i am.
I feel the butterflys in my stomach the ache the doubt that i may not be able to do this that i may not be able to beat one of the greatest legends in SCW history. I did everything that i could to get her focused to get her to her absolute best. I didnt need to beat a Katie Steward thats just accepting of medicroity i needed her mad. But did I get her mad. After I beat Gigi she only watched me she didnt come down and attack me she didnt even look that pissed off.
She played the role of the goddess to a t. She didnt lose her composure she kept her cool. And that is an advantage she has over me i cant keep my cool i cant keep control of my emotions.
I feel maybe If i did bring out the best in Katie Steward then maybe i wont be able to beat her. Maybe i wont be able to go toe to toe with her. She is the veteran she has the advantage in experience shes seen just about every thing one can see in the ring. And I know I make mistakes I made a ton against Gigi because I was so driven with the idea of sending a message to Katie. I almost lost the match several times just because i was trying to hurt her just because i wanted to prove how tough i was.
Stupid... that kind of shit is going to cost me against Katie.
Chad said as much when i got home i didnt expect praise.
But as i entered the house dropped off my bags at the front door. Chad looked at me with a disapointed expression.
Chad: She's going to beat you.
Bianca: What did you not see what i did to Gigi.
Chad: Gigi isnt even half as good as Katie and you barely beat her.
Bianca: Really thanks for the vote of confidence Chad.
Chad: Katie isnt a push over she isnt going to just take your shit. You think she wont do the exact same shit as you did... the knuckles that was cute but remeber Katie invented that. She invented stealing a win by any means and you are just a wannabe Bianca.
I roll my eyes in annoyance and cross my arms looking away from Chad.
Chad approches me.
Chad: You are such an idiot...you are just so reckless and filled with emotions i spotted atleast 20 mistakes you made in this match.
I narrow my eyes and tighten my frown and my arms across my chest in response.
Chad: Do you know why Katie has lasted as long as she has in SCW why she has been on the road with this company longer then anyone else. Competed in more ppv matches then any one else in scw.
Bianca: Because shes old.
Chad: No you idiot. Because no matter what she doesnt give up she may lose...things may not go in her favor but she never steps aside she is like a pheonix..i know some idiot took up that name in scw. But she is a constant she always rises from the ashes she always keeps coming back for more. Do you think even if you some how beat Katie that you will actually be on her level.
Bianca: Yes.
Chad: No because one win is nothing especially over a Legend of Katies Level. Beating her is nothing if you want what i know you want. You want the validation you want to prove yourself to me. Which i think honestly you are going to fail. You are going to screw up like you always do.
Bianca: Why did you marry me if im such a loser.
Chad:Because you have a great ass...no Because you have the hunger to be more. And I want you to prove me wrong. And I want you to do it for yourself not me. I want you to make it about you not me not Katie. Make under attack about you taking your moment about taking this imaginary title of Goddess as your own because its what you want. What you know you deserve not because you are my wife. But because you are Bianca. Because you are the meanest cruelest sadistic bitch this company has ever seen. Your not the spoiled little cunt that came in here with money in the bank. You arent the weak little girl that was humilated by Aj helms a little over a year ago. You are more and that isnt enough for you need more because its what you need to just go on.
Bianca: You are such a fucker.
I say with a slight smile.
Chad: You need to do this for yourself. Not for me that is where you are going at this wrong. I dont want you to take another stupid loss. I want to see you win especially now that you carry my name.
Bianca:I am going to do it for myself. I was having doubts. I really havent done much here in SCW or in life if im honest i dont have a ridiculous list of titles and achievements.
Chad:Good.
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The good thing about being married to Chad is we have our own personal gym. So I dont need to be around any one else. I hate working out with others around I tend to just go for long runs and yoga in my hotel room instead of going to public gyms.
I lift the dumb bell... pulling it up to my shoulder.
"Thats my girl"
I roll my eyes instantly reconizing the voice of my mother.
Bianca: What do you want mother?
Ophelia: just wanting to have a little work out with my daughter we are quite the team
Bianca: You werent a complete idiot out there.
My mother gets on the stair master and begins to walk.
Ophelia: I am so proud of you.
Bianca: Thats new.
Ophelia: I've always been proud of you.
Bianca: no bullshit mother Ethan was always your favoritte you see a chance at milking something.
Ophelia: No-
I drop the barbell suddenly and spin around quickly snatch my mother by the throat
Bianca: I dont need your fake love mother. i want you to get that i dont need you to pretend you've always been proud of me because honestly that disgusts me to my very core. I know you i know you are all about yourself.
Ophelia remains silient. As I let go of her throat.
Bianca: This...is working. We'll just leave it at that.
Ophelia: Um...ok.
Bianca: Just be shut up and let me work out.
I pick up the barbell and continue the rest of my work out.
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After my match at Breakdown beating the nameless girl whose career highlight was getting beat up by me.
I smile because I know the statement i made was loud and clear. The statement i made was to Katie telling her as loud as possible that I am ready to do whatever it takes at under attack. First I beat gigi and took her platnium knuckles to show Katie that i can take from her. That i can take every aspect of who of what Katie is.
The knuckles that once belonged to Gigi...They showed Katie that i can take her whole world from her piece by piece.
Under attack it will be the beginning for me. I have come so far since i first joined SCW i was a ignorant little girl then. I entered this world because my brother had a name and i have a high level of athletic talent. i never even really liked wrestling. I dont even like to entertain people. I like to hurt people and this is the easiest way to do this.
I have an ego to a pretty big one and being good at this being reconized just how good i am that is exhilartating that is a rush. i want to be seen as the one of the best in the business no scratch that i want to be the absolute best in this business i want to be seen as the best in the ring on the mic any and everywhere. And what i noticed looking back at the history of the greats in scw. Is that one big win one career defining moment. And for me that is going to be Katie Steward.
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We open with Bianca evans dressed in a manner similar to Her opponent Katie Steward even sitting in a chair but hers isnt a directors chair but a throne of bones. But she is wearing a black and silver dress. with similar jewerly as well with the acception of the Platnium knuckles resting on her left hand.
Bianca: Why Hello Katie...SCW peons. Finally after days of having to dragh your selves through the pits of dispair that is out put that every one else in SCW puts out i have come with your salvation...well thats a lie. You see what i've discovered over the last while is...That is while Katie represents love, lust and desire...I am the deity if you will of other end of the spectrum. While she is all about being loved and worrshipped. I am about hatred...greed and pain.
Bianca smiles slightly.
Bianca: See I know i am not a Goddess yet I have to earn it i have to earn by beating...the original. I wouldnt say this is an act of spite but that is pretty much what i am all about. I hate that you have the people believe that you are their Goddess I hate that you bring them joy Katie. Because Simply put i hate them all so much. And with good reason they laughed at me when Aj helms broke my heart. They cheered on Shaun Cruze when he beat destroyed me in the ring. They cheered when The tag titles were stolen from my husband and I. The fact that THEY love you Katie makes me hate you.
Bianca: You are a trail blazer in this business a legend blah blah but the fact that you are still here after so long still spouting the whole goddess of desire stuff after all these years. It makes me want to hurt you because i just hate when people are happy i dont know maybe its just a glitch with me. maybe its some kind of malfunction within me that i only seem to be happy when others are miserable when others are at their worst only then do i seem to get my only version of happiness.
Bianca: You...Katie want to be SCW World heavy weight champion once again. And to me...that its nothing. Because I want much more then a simple run as champion. I want to be the face of this company. See you have desires....i have greed my greed isnt just a simple want. I need more always more. And Once i am goddess once i have claimed that title when i defeat you Katie Steward and only then. Any one can win the SCW title given the right circumstances and enough talent. Katie A world title shot isnt enough for me. Because Titles like that they can be won they can be lost....But what if I were to end the career of the goddess herself what if i were to hurt her so bad that she were to never step into an SCW ring again that would be something i'd value because that is something that i wont be taken away from me.
Bianca: So Katie sweet sweet Katie. You are going to pass the torch on to me at Under attack you are going to hand me the keys to this kingdom whether you like it or not. Because its not a choice because i desire it. Thats your thing. I want it and i am taking it I am becoming SCW's new Goddess at Under Attack by BEATING YOU. Because then and only then will i be worthy of that title....And that is more important then a spot in the Adrenaline Chamber im sure if i actually wanted a spot in there i could have had one. This is more important to me...this is more meaningful to me then any title this is more to me then that because once I am the new Goddess this title will be mine forever. It doesnt matter whether i lose a title or win a title i will still be the goddess.
Bianca: But Katie...i need something from you...i have one desire from you. And that is Give me your best give me everything have because maybe this is your chance to get back into the title picture maybe this is your chance. I want you to believe that so you are motivated so you are willing to give this everything you have. So driven Katie. This is it this may be your last chance to get to the top. You've gone toe to toe with the current champion how many times. You've teamed with her you know Sienna Swann better then most in SCW so if any one is a target that is ripe for the pickings for you Katie its her. But the thing is Katie you need to beat me the thing is Katie you need to win at under attack if you want to have any chance at an arguement for your eligibility for said title shot. I dont want this just to be a one off match. This isnt just a part of the show for me this match is everything because my future is wrapped in this match.
Bianca: My Greed is more then your desire. Because you may get a title shot again...but to me this is a once in a life time chance. I have to beat you Katie. I dont just want to this is what I need to build not just momentum for a title shot or some nonsense. The Story of my career the turning point where it all truly begins is with this match. With this victory over you the legendary Katie Steward MY STORY BEGINS. Yours...it may have reached its final chapter.
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Bianca Evans - What i Deserve.
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I want to be more....
I train every day... wake up and work out till it hurts. I look in the mirror and I see every flaw. I see everything thats wrong with me. I see everything i hate about myself. I want to be better i want to be more then i am. I look back at these last few months. I need this...i need to beat Katie Steward...its not just a match...it is my career my life. I deserve this i deserve to be the best i deserve to have that torch passed to me.
But i wouldnt admit it to any one even Chad. But I'm scared...scared im not good enough yet. Scared that I'm not on the level of a legend like Katie Steward. I beat Gigi but beating the princess as the queen.
I look at the knuckles on my wrist moving my fingers along the platinum. I took them from Gigi during our match in part
I'm nervous why the fuck am i nervous...why the fuck am i so uneasy...Its not like no one has beaten Katie. But no...this is more then that. This is more for me then any of them. This is more for me because this moment if i beat Katie if I am able to claim the title of Goddess if I am able to beat Katie i will prove myself worthy of Chad. I will prove my self more then what people see me as.
But Goddess's they dont doubt themselve they dont feel doubt the way i am.
I feel the butterflys in my stomach the ache the doubt that i may not be able to do this that i may not be able to beat one of the greatest legends in SCW history. I did everything that i could to get her focused to get her to her absolute best. I didnt need to beat a Katie Steward thats just accepting of medicroity i needed her mad. But did I get her mad. After I beat Gigi she only watched me she didnt come down and attack me she didnt even look that pissed off.
She played the role of the goddess to a t. She didnt lose her composure she kept her cool. And that is an advantage she has over me i cant keep my cool i cant keep control of my emotions.
I feel maybe If i did bring out the best in Katie Steward then maybe i wont be able to beat her. Maybe i wont be able to go toe to toe with her. She is the veteran she has the advantage in experience shes seen just about every thing one can see in the ring. And I know I make mistakes I made a ton against Gigi because I was so driven with the idea of sending a message to Katie. I almost lost the match several times just because i was trying to hurt her just because i wanted to prove how tough i was.
Stupid... that kind of shit is going to cost me against Katie.
Chad said as much when i got home i didnt expect praise.
But as i entered the house dropped off my bags at the front door. Chad looked at me with a disapointed expression.
Chad: She's going to beat you.
Bianca: What did you not see what i did to Gigi.
Chad: Gigi isnt even half as good as Katie and you barely beat her.
Bianca: Really thanks for the vote of confidence Chad.
Chad: Katie isnt a push over she isnt going to just take your shit. You think she wont do the exact same shit as you did... the knuckles that was cute but remeber Katie invented that. She invented stealing a win by any means and you are just a wannabe Bianca.
I roll my eyes in annoyance and cross my arms looking away from Chad.
Chad approches me.
Chad: You are such an idiot...you are just so reckless and filled with emotions i spotted atleast 20 mistakes you made in this match.
I narrow my eyes and tighten my frown and my arms across my chest in response.
Chad: Do you know why Katie has lasted as long as she has in SCW why she has been on the road with this company longer then anyone else. Competed in more ppv matches then any one else in scw.
Bianca: Because shes old.
Chad: No you idiot. Because no matter what she doesnt give up she may lose...things may not go in her favor but she never steps aside she is like a pheonix..i know some idiot took up that name in scw. But she is a constant she always rises from the ashes she always keeps coming back for more. Do you think even if you some how beat Katie that you will actually be on her level.
Bianca: Yes.
Chad: No because one win is nothing especially over a Legend of Katies Level. Beating her is nothing if you want what i know you want. You want the validation you want to prove yourself to me. Which i think honestly you are going to fail. You are going to screw up like you always do.
Bianca: Why did you marry me if im such a loser.
Chad:Because you have a great ass...no Because you have the hunger to be more. And I want you to prove me wrong. And I want you to do it for yourself not me. I want you to make it about you not me not Katie. Make under attack about you taking your moment about taking this imaginary title of Goddess as your own because its what you want. What you know you deserve not because you are my wife. But because you are Bianca. Because you are the meanest cruelest sadistic bitch this company has ever seen. Your not the spoiled little cunt that came in here with money in the bank. You arent the weak little girl that was humilated by Aj helms a little over a year ago. You are more and that isnt enough for you need more because its what you need to just go on.
Bianca: You are such a fucker.
I say with a slight smile.
Chad: You need to do this for yourself. Not for me that is where you are going at this wrong. I dont want you to take another stupid loss. I want to see you win especially now that you carry my name.
Bianca:I am going to do it for myself. I was having doubts. I really havent done much here in SCW or in life if im honest i dont have a ridiculous list of titles and achievements.
Chad:Good.
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The good thing about being married to Chad is we have our own personal gym. So I dont need to be around any one else. I hate working out with others around I tend to just go for long runs and yoga in my hotel room instead of going to public gyms.
I lift the dumb bell... pulling it up to my shoulder.
"Thats my girl"
I roll my eyes instantly reconizing the voice of my mother.
Bianca: What do you want mother?
Ophelia: just wanting to have a little work out with my daughter we are quite the team
Bianca: You werent a complete idiot out there.
My mother gets on the stair master and begins to walk.
Ophelia: I am so proud of you.
Bianca: Thats new.
Ophelia: I've always been proud of you.
Bianca: no bullshit mother Ethan was always your favoritte you see a chance at milking something.
Ophelia: No-
I drop the barbell suddenly and spin around quickly snatch my mother by the throat
Bianca: I dont need your fake love mother. i want you to get that i dont need you to pretend you've always been proud of me because honestly that disgusts me to my very core. I know you i know you are all about yourself.
Ophelia remains silient. As I let go of her throat.
Bianca: This...is working. We'll just leave it at that.
Ophelia: Um...ok.
Bianca: Just be shut up and let me work out.
I pick up the barbell and continue the rest of my work out.
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After my match at Breakdown beating the nameless girl whose career highlight was getting beat up by me.
I smile because I know the statement i made was loud and clear. The statement i made was to Katie telling her as loud as possible that I am ready to do whatever it takes at under attack. First I beat gigi and took her platnium knuckles to show Katie that i can take from her. That i can take every aspect of who of what Katie is.
The knuckles that once belonged to Gigi...They showed Katie that i can take her whole world from her piece by piece.
Under attack it will be the beginning for me. I have come so far since i first joined SCW i was a ignorant little girl then. I entered this world because my brother had a name and i have a high level of athletic talent. i never even really liked wrestling. I dont even like to entertain people. I like to hurt people and this is the easiest way to do this.
I have an ego to a pretty big one and being good at this being reconized just how good i am that is exhilartating that is a rush. i want to be seen as the one of the best in the business no scratch that i want to be the absolute best in this business i want to be seen as the best in the ring on the mic any and everywhere. And what i noticed looking back at the history of the greats in scw. Is that one big win one career defining moment. And for me that is going to be Katie Steward.
----------
We open with Bianca evans dressed in a manner similar to Her opponent Katie Steward even sitting in a chair but hers isnt a directors chair but a throne of bones. But she is wearing a black and silver dress. with similar jewerly as well with the acception of the Platnium knuckles resting on her left hand.
Bianca: Why Hello Katie...SCW peons. Finally after days of having to dragh your selves through the pits of dispair that is out put that every one else in SCW puts out i have come with your salvation...well thats a lie. You see what i've discovered over the last while is...That is while Katie represents love, lust and desire...I am the deity if you will of other end of the spectrum. While she is all about being loved and worrshipped. I am about hatred...greed and pain.
Bianca smiles slightly.
Bianca: See I know i am not a Goddess yet I have to earn it i have to earn by beating...the original. I wouldnt say this is an act of spite but that is pretty much what i am all about. I hate that you have the people believe that you are their Goddess I hate that you bring them joy Katie. Because Simply put i hate them all so much. And with good reason they laughed at me when Aj helms broke my heart. They cheered on Shaun Cruze when he beat destroyed me in the ring. They cheered when The tag titles were stolen from my husband and I. The fact that THEY love you Katie makes me hate you.
Bianca: You are a trail blazer in this business a legend blah blah but the fact that you are still here after so long still spouting the whole goddess of desire stuff after all these years. It makes me want to hurt you because i just hate when people are happy i dont know maybe its just a glitch with me. maybe its some kind of malfunction within me that i only seem to be happy when others are miserable when others are at their worst only then do i seem to get my only version of happiness.
Bianca: You...Katie want to be SCW World heavy weight champion once again. And to me...that its nothing. Because I want much more then a simple run as champion. I want to be the face of this company. See you have desires....i have greed my greed isnt just a simple want. I need more always more. And Once i am goddess once i have claimed that title when i defeat you Katie Steward and only then. Any one can win the SCW title given the right circumstances and enough talent. Katie A world title shot isnt enough for me. Because Titles like that they can be won they can be lost....But what if I were to end the career of the goddess herself what if i were to hurt her so bad that she were to never step into an SCW ring again that would be something i'd value because that is something that i wont be taken away from me.
Bianca: So Katie sweet sweet Katie. You are going to pass the torch on to me at Under attack you are going to hand me the keys to this kingdom whether you like it or not. Because its not a choice because i desire it. Thats your thing. I want it and i am taking it I am becoming SCW's new Goddess at Under Attack by BEATING YOU. Because then and only then will i be worthy of that title....And that is more important then a spot in the Adrenaline Chamber im sure if i actually wanted a spot in there i could have had one. This is more important to me...this is more meaningful to me then any title this is more to me then that because once I am the new Goddess this title will be mine forever. It doesnt matter whether i lose a title or win a title i will still be the goddess.
Bianca: But Katie...i need something from you...i have one desire from you. And that is Give me your best give me everything have because maybe this is your chance to get back into the title picture maybe this is your chance. I want you to believe that so you are motivated so you are willing to give this everything you have. So driven Katie. This is it this may be your last chance to get to the top. You've gone toe to toe with the current champion how many times. You've teamed with her you know Sienna Swann better then most in SCW so if any one is a target that is ripe for the pickings for you Katie its her. But the thing is Katie you need to beat me the thing is Katie you need to win at under attack if you want to have any chance at an arguement for your eligibility for said title shot. I dont want this just to be a one off match. This isnt just a part of the show for me this match is everything because my future is wrapped in this match.
Bianca: My Greed is more then your desire. Because you may get a title shot again...but to me this is a once in a life time chance. I have to beat you Katie. I dont just want to this is what I need to build not just momentum for a title shot or some nonsense. The Story of my career the turning point where it all truly begins is with this match. With this victory over you the legendary Katie Steward MY STORY BEGINS. Yours...it may have reached its final chapter.
-fin-
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Writer of Dillusion, David Helms, Katelyn Buehler, Kordy and Bianca Evans
Writer of Dillusion, David Helms, Katelyn Buehler, Kordy and Bianca Evans