The Enigma vs. Konrad Raab

[Konrad Raab]

Phoenix, Arizona. Tuesday 5th April. (Offline)

It has been a long time since I heard from my niece, and I know how desperately she wanted to talk to me. Of course, Monday was a little hectic. I had to go to Kaulig Racing headquarters to talk about the Xfinity Series race I had in Las Vegas on that Saturday before a brief meet-up with my twin brother and Samuel because I had time to do so on that Sunday morning as Glendale, Arizona, wasn't that far from Las Vegas. I wasn't wrestling on it, but scheduled to be there.

Then, after the tag match, I came out towards Enigma because he was the one guy I've always wanted to face since he got into Supreme Championship Wrestling. After all, I know the threat he poses; I see the idea of him becoming the most dangerous man in Supreme Championship Wrestling was also a thing for me. Apart from Kim, I know he's much more like me than anybody on the roster.

Of course, I had to be in Arizona this week anyway for the race ahead, as it was pointless to go home only to come back here again. So it was a perfect chance for Ginny and me to meet up. I was only a fan of meeting people in public if it was to interact with fans, which my NASCAR job required me to do. Of course, I couldn't meet with her in my motorhome because it hadn't arrived in Arizona until later today.

So it took me all of yesterday where the perfect place we could meet up to talk about shit going on with me while I was away from Supreme Championship Wrestling, without public attention, without people that can randomly come and hear us. I found somewhere, although it would be late at night, a place called Papago Park. While we ate out, we were silent and played bowling and arcades to kill time.

But at ten-fifteen at night, we went up to the mountain and sat inside without anybody around us. I felt comfortable in that situation regarding my life and wrestling business discussions. Ginny started things off with me, desperately getting things off her chest.

Ginny Raab: "I'm so sick of your shenanigans, Konrad. What the hell were you thinking about playing with fire?"

Konrad Raab: "That bitch deserved every ounce of pain she got after she stabbed me in the back for years back. I told you I would stop at nothing to make her life a living hell. I'm satisfied, despite me being burned, that she got the bloody message to not fuck with me ever again on fucking her up. I can move on from her for the time being."

Ginny Raab: "You completely snapped. Markus told me about your past with your father, and everything he said is right. You're becoming like him."

Konrad Raab: “Oh fuck you.”

My dad was mentioned, and each time I had that in my mind of people saying I act like my dad, I got pissed off because I act nothing like him. I hated admitting he affected me so fucking much, and I threw a rock because I knew beating Ginny would lose my sanity, and I couldn't afford to lose more people in my life. I threw many rocks with anger, and Ginny held my shoulder.

Ginny Raab: "I'm sorry."

Konrad Raab: "No, you're not. You don't know how badly I was abused by my dad, beating me up every day when I was five years old, when I was ten, he tried to burn my face off with an oven and a gas stove, and then when I was a teenager, he beat me with a weapon. Now you want me to disregard this shit and be back to how I was back in the day? It's not going to fucking happen."

I realised how scared Ginny was when I showed anger on my face, and I turned away, feeling guilty and repulsed at how I reacted to her because of something she had no idea about. The reason I hadn't seen her. Ginny cried because I felt so aggressive and vile towards her, but the topic about my dad and how I was like him always made me pissed off. It took the pair of us long before Ginny approached me and stood far away.

Ginny Raab: "I didn't realise how your dad effectively made you the way you are. I didn't realise how this topic would make you so pissed off."

Konrad Raab: "No, you wouldn't because I never told you, and that's why. I promise I will try not to get angry about it ever again. I need to tell you something I've been doing since I've been away from wrestling and not contacting anyone."

Ginny wipes tears from her face, and I feel out of line. At the same time, I hate my father and hate people telling me I am exactly like him. She touches my arm to soothe me and my mental pain about my dad. Also, I know this will shock her a lot more, as I was about to tell Ginny something nobody in Supreme Championship Wrestling would know. Ginny sits down next to me.

Ginny Raab: "I have been wondering what you've been doing all this time, and so have Dakon and Ludvig. Even your brother has. What do you want to tell me?"

Konrad Raab: "Please don't tell anyone, including Dakon and Ludvig, this. I've been having therapy every single day with my anger, and I still continue to have them. I have been too explosive for my own good, honestly. I've neglected my kids and even my partner because of my anger, and part of my anger has been me being stressed as fuck. I don't want to be angry outside the ring."

Ginny Raab: "But you were still angry with me there, can't be that much improvement."

Konrad Raab: "I know because it's only been a month since I started them. I'm angry because I've never had self-esteem or been positive. I'm a miserable asshole. I'm a literal piece of garbage."

Ginny shook her head, but it was true. I had been discovering this during my time away from wrestling. Although I was recovering from burns at the same time, they weren't something that affected me that much, mainly because I had racing to still do, and I did. But the therapy stuff came to me rather than me seeking help for it.

Ginny Raab: "No, you're not a garbage person. How did the whole therapy stuff come about anyway?"

Konrad Raab: "The therapist didn't mention the staff name of who it was in Supreme Championship Wrestling, but they requested a therapist, Ross Barnes, for me because my anger had been so explosive. I also spoke to him about my fears of challenging a world champion for a world title match, with the symptoms you know about as you saw them."

Ginny Raab: "Wow, I never expected you to accept that with the anger stuff. We've spoken about the therapist for sports success, but not for anger."

Konrad Raab: "I had to; under my new Supreme Championship Wrestling contract, I must always have Ross with me. They'd fire me if I rejected because they were concerned for my and others well being due to my explosive anger, and they thought me having someone outside of my family to talk to about my feelings would benefit me. I was pissed off about it at first, but the more Ross spoke to me about the behaviour I had done and what SCW unnamed staff member told him about me, the more he was right."

Ginny Raab: "Does that mean you'll calm down?"

Konrad Raab: "No, because what I do has been the reason I've been getting attention as I have. I will still be violent, and I will still cause hell for others because that's the motivation I have that will make me succeed. I had a god damn reality check on Ross giving me solid advice on what to do as a leader of the European Fiery Nation, and I have done everything wrong."

It was baffling how much of a reality check I got from Ross of him to say things to me, and I'm still processing the information he had told me. Ginny was still worried for me, and that's understandable when I refused to change when it came to being a wrestler in the business. But I did have to tell Ginny the truth.

Konrad Raab: "But he did say that I should use my anger constructively. He told me to go for championships again because that's what a leader of wrestling teams does, and I find that hard to process, but he was right. I told him I wasn't interested because it was an easy goal to have instead of the pressure of facing champions, including the US, Tag, and Adrenaline titles as well as the World Title."

Ginny Raab: "Well, that's one good thing that came out. One, you have a guy to talk to about your feelings and how you deal with them; two, you realise your mistakes. I understand you will be angry at wrestlers, and I feel that is the motivation for you, but your shenanigans with fire have to stop."

Konrad Raab: “Yes, I understand. I can't promise I won't use fire on people because that is a thing that has got me well known now, but less of that to make it affect my motivation mentally; that's what will burn me. Burning up my motivation to be a champion again. I will still be violent, I will still make people bleed, and I will still hurt people to make things happen."

I had to tell Ginny that. Just because I had to stick to having a therapist and signed a contract to do so doesn't mean I have to stick with it. But I mainly used Ross for my sports mentality therapy. He spoke about my anger and how I could use it in the ring, but it was more of a concern about the destruction I was causing myself and others.

Ginny Raab: "I know you always wanted to face Enigma because you feel he's dangerous. You seem more interested in the guy than Dakon and Ludvig were."

Konrad Raab: "I don't blame them for making the video they did because he isn't a European wrestler, and having him be on a team, even just for one match, so I get that part."

Ginny Raab: "But we don't know where Enigma comes from. He might be European, but his bio after I looked him up stated it was unknown."

Konrad Raab: "Why hide where you're from? Not once did my twin brother and I hide where we were from. You can't entirely blame Dakon and Ludvig for immediately assuming Enigma is American. Besides, he hasn't faced anyone on the same level as me. He's gotten inside many people's heads, but he won't come close to doing it with me; if anything, I'd have the upper hand every time.”

Ginny Raab: "I've never seen him face a violent wrestler like yourself. You'd give him a run for his money."

I nodded in agreement with that statement. We drank water repeatedly during the discussion and brought a carrier bag with a big bottle of water each since we were in the desert. I scratched my head and had many thoughts during my time away that Enigma would be one of the opponents I wanted to face on my return.

Konrad Raab: "That's why Enigma was my chosen opponent because he needs to face someone full of violence to show him just how truly nasty fucker I am. I'll fuck him up, and I use fire stories to tell him what I face every single day, even with the cheap mist imitation he pulls. That, for him, is just a wrestling prop. I will show him what reality is like."

Ginny Raab: "That's more like the Konrad I want. A guy interested in winning championships for the team, but also being realistic about things."

Konrad Raab: "I also apologise for scaring you and my out-of-hand shenanigans. I also didn't contact you or anyone because I needed to rethink my decisions, and if I had spilt the beans to you beforehand, someone would've found out, so I'd rather you be told afterwards than before."

I felt a vibration in my pocket as I pulled my phone out. I received a text from my motorhome driver stating that my motorhome was at the Phoenix Raceway. I replied to say thank you and sent it at the perfect time for the discussions to be finished.

Konrad Raab: "Well, I had better get to the Phoenix Raceway; my motorhome has arrived there."

Ginny Raab: "I appreciate you taking the time to talk to me privately. I'm pretty free all week and want to be around you. You and I haven't spoken or seen each other for a month until today."

Konrad Raab: "Sure, but one, I will contact Chris Rice to get you a VIP pass, and two, during my therapy sessions with Ross, you must leave the motorhome as nobody is allowed to be there, as they are one-on-one sessions."

Ginny Raab: "I understand. Can I have a hug?"

I nodded, as Ginny deserved that from me after the lashing out I did, and gave her one massive hug after telling her all of what had been going on. I didn't talk about the burns recovery because I didn't need to. I contacted Chris Rice, my Kaulig Racing boss, to ask him about getting Ginny a VIP pass. He texted, saying I'll meet you at the track with it. We left Papago Park to get an Uber to head straight to the Phoenix Raceway track. Chris gave me a VIP pass, and I gave it to Ginny to put around her neck before we went to my motorhome to get some sleep.

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I have my reasons for wanting to face you, Enigma blog. (Online)

"You damn right, Enigma, that I trespassed to face you because nobody else got in your face like I have. You threatened everyone around you, and you do nothing when someone like me comes along. But did you know Enigma, I've always wanted to face you since the day you came to Supreme Championship Wrestling? No rookie until now has ever caught my attention. I admire you for having an excellent TV title run, although that's one of two titles I don't want to hold again, as I've been there and done that. Your spooky nature has gotten attention from many wrestlers, but certainly from me, along with your destruction of wrestlers. Also, you have a dangerous intent to be a dangerous wrestler in SCW.

The fact is, it's been a while since I had to give respect to a wrestler that deserves credit. You do, and you're an interesting wrestler, which is why I chose to face you out of everyone I could've picked, so be thankful I won't be trashing you anywhere near the levels of Xander, who's a joke when it comes to lack of violence.

But you really said you have no issues of being violent? I don't believe you because I've never seen you violent in your SCW career. You've never fought a violent man since you've been here. The guys you've wrestled are weaklings; the same is valid with female wrestlers. You've never fought anyone like me that's more than capable of being violent and beating the living shit out of you, bitch.

As I said, I don't fear you at all. I see the opposite of you fearing me since you're incapable of getting in my face. Also, I have no problems suffering the consequences of my actions since I got burned after all, and I suffer them every day, so nothing you do will make a damn difference. As far as my team attacking you is concerned? I knew I couldn't make the show in time because I had to do a road course race in Texas that Saturday. I had them attack you to send you a damn message. If I didn't have to race, I would've done it myself.

Your mist game is cheap and an imitation that, while blinding people, won't affect me. I've had to face fire my entire life, even before I became a wrestler, which is very much real. If you throw mist in my face, I'll throw a fireball to your face, too, because you won't have the upper hand.

You can claim that the shadows are not bound by mortal laws; no, they aren't, but they will always be following you. I talk to shadows every day, too, to help me overcome the hell I went through, including fire. My team serve the purpose of being the first team that doesn't come from an English-speaking country to be tag champions. We're building more European wrestlers that don't come from the UK or Ireland to give them a chance to be professional wrestlers because nobody else will.

You don't have the power to do anything to me because you don't stand a chance of defeating me. Oh sure, I lost to Xander, but he couldn't do crap to me that I hadn't suffered before. While I respect you, which is why I chose to fight you, I know you'll give me the violence no man has ever gone before. I will use my violence to win either the US, Adrenaline or World Title in my own hands because I have that desire and was given a reality check.

You don't stand a damn chance, and I will make you taste your own blood on top of dosing you in flames as well, especially if you try to throw the mist in my face; fireballs are a thing that I can produce. Our match will be brutal and violent because you process those things, but I'm the better violent and brutal wrestler.

We'll showcase a match the fans will want to see and will be talking about for years to come because of our dark, mysterious personalities both of us have, although I tend to be more explosive. While I will beat you down to make you bleed, it's out of respect, and good luck on trying to beat me because you won't."