Xander Valentine vs. Konrad Raab

[Konrad Raab]

2 RP Limit for singles

DEADLINE FOR BOTH SHOWS IS SUNDAY, DECEMBER 15, 2019 at NOON ET

[Adamsama]

https://scwexecutioner.wordpress.com/201...-wreckage/

[Konrad Raab]

Nightmare disorder/Dissociative Identity Disorder discussions. Las Vegas, Nevada. Friday, 13th December. (Off Camera)

It's been a while since the last time Konrad went to the Alliance Mental Health Specialists to talk to the doctor he's had for years in Germany to talk about his life. Konrad hasn't forgotten to attend his sessions; he's been swamped not to do them. Luckily, Konrad has time today to pop in and see his doctor. Konrad sits in the waiting room, placing his head down in between his legs, shaking his whole body, as usual, waiting. It's usually the process of waiting that's hard for Konrad to do, fearing someone would attack him, while not wearing a mask.

Konrad's the only one waiting to see his doctor as all the others were called before him. Even the overalls he wears was making Konrad uncomfortable, moving about wearing them due to only putting them on. After ten minutes, he felt comfortable again as it's been almost a month since he last wore the white overalls. As Konrad was sitting there, the door opened and the female doctor with blond hair, in her early twenties comes in to say this.

Female Doctor: "Konrad Raab."

Konrad lifts his head up and with a ton of force inside of him, stands himself up as the female doctor waits outside before Konrad eventually gets up, picking the carrier bag of his mask up and the female doctor walks alongside Konrad and takes him to Doctor Schneider's room. The female doctor goes back to reception after she sees Schneider take Konrad inside of his office.

As he sits down, he breathes heavily like Konrad's already exhausted from walking as Konrad takes a seat, shaking around his body as Konrad takes a sip of water in a plastic cup. Konrad puts it down with Schneider, already writing down Konrad's body reactions on a piece of paper as he came in the room and how he was sitting wasn't relaxed.

Doctor Schneider: "You slept, alright?"

Konrad Raab: "Since those tablets, I've been sleeping better, or at least that's what Fizz says."

Doctor Schneider: "Is it because you've not been here a while it's made you uncomfortable being here again?"

Konrad nodded; it was why he was feeling uncomfortable as he had been since he walked into the Alliance Mental Health Specialists. Konrad forgot how scary it was to walk in here, without the fear of being attacked, especially more with what happened at the Taking Hold Of The Flame PPV.

Doctor Schneider: "I understand. So today, since we started the discussion anyway, you mentioned you've been sleeping better. Does that mean the nightmare disorder doesn't appear anymore?"

Konrad Raab: "Well I wouldn't say they completely disappeared, especially I think during the day, if the nightmare will happen in my sleep and if Fizz will be attacked. Usually, they don't, but I know I've not slept as comfortable as I have these last few nights now."

Doctor Schneider: "That's good to hear. Regardless of your progress, you know you'll be on these tablets for the rest of your life. You know if you need a stronger dose, let me know."

Konrad Raab: "I will do."

Schneider nods his head, telling Konrad he has to take the tablets he was given during his last visit with the sleep therapy Konrad went through. Schneider has managed to speak to Fizz privately about how Konrad's been, and it has matched everything Konrad's said, even with the thoughts he has during the day.

Doctor Schneider: "As for Dissociative Identity Disorder. It's an insanity defence magnesium for psychical and mental abuse you had from your father. The whole devil stuff now Erik you do, it's what you've been told yes, but it's also a personality that's different to how you are usually."

Konrad Raab: "So this whole thing about me not remembering s……………….."

Doctor Schneider: "Yes, when you imagine this Erik guy in your mind, or rather when you put The Black Ice mask on, it will make you forget everything you've done. That's also apart of having Dissociative Identity Disorder as well. Everything your father did to you has affected you quite severely."

Konrad Raab: "How did my mum react when you told her the news?"

As Konrad diagnosed at eight years old, he wasn't able to remember as Schneider wrote down mainly how Konrad was reacting. Konrad puts his head down, looking at the floor, pouring with sweat, tears running down his cheek because of the emotion he's feeling which Schneider writes down. 

Doctor Schneider: "She was in tears of fear, much like you were in August when the other doctor told you. You reacted with anger from the notes I have written here. I understand because you were confused and had no idea about it."

Konrad Raab: "Would you if someone told you out of the blue?"

Doctor Schneider: "Relax, I didn't mean to get you angry. I'm saying things how they are."

Konrad breathes calmly, knowing Schneider was right, feeling that Konrad's disappointment of being hidden from his past as Schneider sees Konrad needed work on him accepting it and moving on from it. It was going to be hard for Schneider to help Konrad through that. He speaks about it.

Doctor Schneider: "I need to help you overcome that because you're still angry about the past being hidden from you. When it seems you wouldn't even talk about your childhood to anyone, it's because you weren't able to remember it, wanting to forget about it which is another thing about the DID you have."

Konrad Raab: "Does that mean I got the condition in part because my dad was a psychopath?"

Doctor Schneider: "No, it was because of what your dad had done when you were a young boy that you got the DID condition. It was a way for you to cope with the beatings and mental abuse you suffered. I can't guarantee in the future if your kids get it, but the chance of that is small, especially talking to Fizz, you're nothing like your father."

Konrad Raab: "I hope not to be either. My kids get treated way better than I did as a kid. The worst thing is, my eldest son I adopted who's fourteen years old has started asking me about my childhood, but I say he's too young to know."

Schneider, although understands Konrad, shakes his head of him telling lies to his son, knowing it's not true. Still, it's something it's best to say for now due to Konrad's lack of understanding, especially about his dad doing horrific things for him as a kid as Konrad sighs, knowing it's not made Schneider too pleased with Konrad's lie.

Doctor Schneider: "I don't think at fourteen years old is young at all to tell your adopted son about your childhood; I think you're afraid of telling him about it. That's the problem. I'm also guessing from hearing that; you've not told anyone, have you?"

Konrad Raab: "Actually, I have, two people of Amy Chastine and James Evans. Amy has been a friend of mine since I started in SCW and James. I told him because he goes through the same as me. Both were shocked on me having these sort of problems cos they both said I'm too nice to have DID."

Doctor Schneider: "Well done, at least two people know about it, outside of your family. I sense your fear of telling your son about your life. He has the right to know, and I say you need to tell him sooner than later."

Konrad Raab: "I don't know how to explain it to him when it's still not digesting in my mind yet or knowing anything about it, well at the times he keeps asking me, I didn't."

Doctor Schneider: "That's what we're going to work on; you knowing more about your DID and your father so you can open yourself up to him about your life. You need to tell him because he's growing up to be a man and he needs to know before he turns eighteen."

Konrad nods his head, acknowledging Schneider as to what he said about telling his eldest son, asking him questions about his childhood, knowing Sebastian had every right to know about Konrad's life. It was hard for Konrad to digest about the condition, especially when he's facing a man who's his worst enemy in terms of the mental opposites, something Konrad needed to talk to Schneider about, but Schneider speaks about something else.

Doctor Schneider: "I don't know why the doctor you see in America didn't have these notes, but you wouldn't have exploded as you did in two thousand and seventeen had you known about your father. He acted the same way Jason did, but there were signs of you snapping before that, like hiding from everyone and being able to take abuse."

Konrad Raab: "Clearly, I wasn't able to take it when I attempted suicide over it."

Doctor Schneider: "Of course not, but you acted like on screen you could. In reality, you were hiding it, and it was all the years of your dad beating and abusing you that caused you to wear the mask to help you with your anger. Even Fizz sensed you needed to defend yourself."

Konrad Raab: "Yeah, now I wished I was able to be a wrestler a lot earlier, and what I should've done in the first place, I didn't because it's difficult to be a pro wrestler in Germany, but I got lucky of going out with someone who was."

Doctor Schneider: "I'm glad you thought you should've been, but I also think another reason you weren't earlier because of your dad stopping you from defending yourself. He wanted to make you suffer from his anger and using you as a punching bag."

Konrad Raab: "Exactly how I feel."

It was a shameful soft voice of Konrad, admitting about what he's recently learnt himself about his dad or rather what he experienced in himself as Schneider nods, smiling at Konrad on discovering his history of Konrad not being a wrestler a lot earlier. When Schneider finishes writing, Konrad starts to talk.

Konrad Raab: "How do I deal with a man who's exactly like my dad on Wednesday night? The guy is my own worst enemy of mental opposites of attacking weak and vulnerable people?"

Doctor Schneider: "Do you mean Xander Valentine?"

Konrad Raab: "Yes."

Doctor Schneider: "Indeed, it is like facing your dad in this case, but he's a lot stronger than your father, but a monster like your dad was. What you should do is stand up for yourself, giving everything you have. Be yourself; don't even think about being The Black Ice."

Konrad Raab: "I won't lie to say I've had thoughts of being The Black Ice with him."

Doctor Schneider: "But that would signal to him and your father above your weak and be the same as him. You don't want that, but at the same time, you can't let your guard down either. He needs to learn a lot from you because you want to change and not be that guy and he doesn't."

Silence across Konrad's face, thinking about the match which in turn, makes Konrad shiver a bit, thinking about his worst enemy in terms of mental opposites. Konrad always wanted to do everything possible not to be like his dad, but at the same time, cannot allow himself to be pushed around. He had to balance the two in-between as he says this after Schneider, writing everything Konrad acts and states it.

Konrad Raab: "You're right. My wife is anxious about me facing him because the chances of me getting hurt are high, the chances of me exploding are high too."

Doctor Schneider: "As I said, it has to be balanced. Keep doing what you're doing as of late, but don't be afraid to unleash your anger and hurt him either, but only if you have to. Watch Damian Angel match on how well you did against him with keeping things balanced."

Konrad Raab: "Got you, that was the turning point of my career. I'll watch that match continuously until Wednesday night. Thanks for the suggestion."

Doctor Schneider: "That's what I'm here for. Anyway, time is up for today; hopefully, I can see you next week about working on the anger you have for things hidden from the past and being able to tell your eldest son too."

Konrad smiles, feeling much better walking out of the room, with the majority of things out in the open to his doctor. Konrad picks his mask up and leaves the room, feeling much better as he goes in the changing rooms to change out of his overalls into his usual shirt and jeans. He goes to reception to collect his belongings and leaves the mental health specialists place to get in his car to head home.

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A test to face my demons youtube.com shoot. (On Camera)

"Pretty much what this match against Xander Valentine is a test to face my demons to face a monster. Yes, I admit you are the way you treat other people like a piece of garbage. Nothing can be said about your size and strength of you as a wrestler, not to forget the achievements you've done as a wrestler as well. I respect your accomplishments in SCW.

But you have no balance in your life whatsoever. You don't know a damn thing about being human because you're afraid of being one. Feels like you don't beat on male wrestlers, no, you beat on people who aren't wrestlers, including Mr D which I was sickened by and when you face wrestlers, you love to beat on female wrestlers, being nothing more than a woman beater. Does it make you feel good, you fight and beat people smaller than you? Because from what I've seen, you've never challenged a male wrestler to a fight since you've been in SCW for quite a bit.

It seems you run away from male wrestlers and beat on women wrestlers. When I challenged Regan Street to a match, it wasn't because I wanted to be a piece of crap and be a woman beater like yourself, it was because of doing the right thing of having a match Regan deserved. You're my worst enemy when it comes to how polar opposites we are on me making things balanced; you refuse to help people because you're scared of helping people, much less being sociable to other wrestlers because you feel it makes you weak. You're exactly like my twin brother who's all of those things like yourself, but the difference is that he doesn't beat on fans or owners who can't defend themselves.

He proves to be a monster in the ring against other wrestlers, where everything should belong. I hated when I aligned myself against you because I wasn't the person I am. It changed me into a horrible human being, then again, something happened to me after I was eliminated from the Taking Hold Of The Flame Rumble, even my life could've ended.

Which is why I freaked out as I did and why I was frightened to speak on my mind on things, letting people control me, but now, I'm in a much better place, and I know who I am. See, I already sense your weakness as a person because there's nothing you've done to help others in this company, everything you've done has been for yourself.

Then again, after what happened at Clarity PPV, you couldn't beat Selena Frost. Sure, I lost to her as well, but the difference is you've been a world champion before and being a hall of famer, I'm none of those things. If you want to hurt me, a man who's almost the same height as you, go right ahead because I'm not the man you once saw before Rise To Greatness.

I've grown into a man who isn't afraid to hurt and make you suffer if I need to. You can only look at the match I had with Damian Angel to know what I'm like when I'm angry, I let loose on him, doing a good deed to earn back the fans I lost before Taking Hold Of The Flame. I wanted to change, and I wanted a match against you, yes, to test my mettle against you. To test myself to face the top wrestlers of SCW and see where I go.

Because I know I can beat you and I know you'll bad mouth against me because that's what you always do, but now, you face against a male wrestler. Sure, I've lost three pounds the last time you saw me, but my height is still the same, and I will beat the living itch out of you should I need to. I don't tell lies about myself cos I'd admit to the truth of everything I've regretted, including siding with you.

Point is I'm ready to take on the monster, The Executioner as you call yourself that I don't fear anyone. I will do anything in the rules since you too scared to show your talent in the ring if you do beat people clean to beat you in the ring, being the biggest upset of all time, even bigger upset than me beating Damian Angel. 

If I can beat him, I certainly can with you. Women and fan beaters deserve to taste their own blood, especially when The Iced Rainbow comes down to hit you hard and push you to your limits. I might be hurt and blooded, but don't think I won't do the same if I have to because I will, and you'll realise it sooner than later. Tomorrow night at Los Angeles, California, I will dethrone the executioner by either pinfall or submission, beating someone who's nearly the same height as me and doing it in style. Let's see if you can beat on a tough male wrestler like The Iced Rainbow himself. You will see what The Iced Rainbow is about. 

Also, The Iced Rainbow is more than happy to take the opportunity of a lifetime to compete in the End Of The Year Rumble for the SCW title because I crave for another chance to be the SCW champion. For now, I will make a mark on beating Xander Valentine in the ring, crossing off my list of opponents I want to face in the ring. Prepare to be Iceinated by The Iced Rainbow who will hit harder than you would on me."