01-24-2021, 12:58 AM
Watching. Waiting. I would almost say hoping but I am far too old to even pretend like hope is a real thing. I am a man without purpose, driven by nothing more then bitterness as I slowly watch one thing I used to think I respect kill the image I once held in higher esteem in my head.
It means nothing but I have no other real purpose in life. Maybe I should thank him for giving me something to do when I've finally awakened him to the reality that there is absolutely nothing in this world left for him and some semblance of real thought is finally allowed to start going back into that thick childish skull. Then he can thank me. Maybe he'll kill himself and I can at least remember him how I'd want to remember him, not as this troll thing that pretends to represent Cid Turner. Probably for the best.
Maybe he won't. At least he'll stop this charade. That's all I want. That's all I really need.
Just for him to stop the fucking charade. It's not asking for much. It would be better for all parties involved. Just let it die.
It means nothing but I have no other real purpose in life. Maybe I should thank him for giving me something to do when I've finally awakened him to the reality that there is absolutely nothing in this world left for him and some semblance of real thought is finally allowed to start going back into that thick childish skull. Then he can thank me. Maybe he'll kill himself and I can at least remember him how I'd want to remember him, not as this troll thing that pretends to represent Cid Turner. Probably for the best.
Maybe he won't. At least he'll stop this charade. That's all I want. That's all I really need.
Just for him to stop the fucking charade. It's not asking for much. It would be better for all parties involved. Just let it die.