03-21-2021, 09:23 PM
I've been taking some of this weekend to think - Long story short, for those who don't know, I teach. And while normally I've had a lot of this figured out and be much more on top of it, the shift to remote learning has meant a lot more screen time and just a lot more work.
This past week, in particular, despite my best efforts, I've hit my wall. I find myself just forcing myself through everything. To put it another way, I've not taken a true break in a long, long time. And it's caught up, especially when virtually everything I do, from work, to my professional development, to this hobby, is all online, all using very similar skills.
Simply put, while it sometimes feels like that end to my time in the game may be faster and faster approaching, I also still enjoy writing the shows and coming up with the content. I just don't have the time and while it's easy for me to blame it in the guantlet match, I not only agreed to it but looked forward to writing the match. I also still think that's the best Breakdown I've written in years. It however, because of the effort I put into it, only served to snowball the fact that a year into this pandemic, I can keep brute forcing my way through my schedule, hoping that I'll get my chance to rest at the end.
So, after much though, I'm going to do something for myself. Retribution will be up, I hope, in the next couple of days, but I'm going to push the schedule back a week - so the March 25 card will now be for April 1 and so forth. I'll probably shave a week from the RtG build. But this is done to allow myself to take the time to frankly get on top of my work and also take some time for myself, reset, and then I can get back into the swing of things. Helping matter is that the term is over in three weeks and I'll have much less week-to-week work to worry about. I realize this may annoy some, but at some point, I need to make the best decision for myself.
This past week, in particular, despite my best efforts, I've hit my wall. I find myself just forcing myself through everything. To put it another way, I've not taken a true break in a long, long time. And it's caught up, especially when virtually everything I do, from work, to my professional development, to this hobby, is all online, all using very similar skills.
Simply put, while it sometimes feels like that end to my time in the game may be faster and faster approaching, I also still enjoy writing the shows and coming up with the content. I just don't have the time and while it's easy for me to blame it in the guantlet match, I not only agreed to it but looked forward to writing the match. I also still think that's the best Breakdown I've written in years. It however, because of the effort I put into it, only served to snowball the fact that a year into this pandemic, I can keep brute forcing my way through my schedule, hoping that I'll get my chance to rest at the end.
So, after much though, I'm going to do something for myself. Retribution will be up, I hope, in the next couple of days, but I'm going to push the schedule back a week - so the March 25 card will now be for April 1 and so forth. I'll probably shave a week from the RtG build. But this is done to allow myself to take the time to frankly get on top of my work and also take some time for myself, reset, and then I can get back into the swing of things. Helping matter is that the term is over in three weeks and I'll have much less week-to-week work to worry about. I realize this may annoy some, but at some point, I need to make the best decision for myself.